J Wade's blog: "Day by Day"

I've noticed something recently. I've been apologizing for like, everything. I don't know why I've been doing it, but I think it has something to do with anxiety. Maybe I've been trying to seek approval from others to feel accepted or for some kind of sympathy, I don't know.

The fact is, I need to stop. It took me too long to realize it. I don't need to prove myself to anyone, and no one needs to do the same for me. If I apologize, it should probably be because I hurt someone with my words and I felt real guilt from it. However, I hope that I don't do that to anyone. It's just not something I want to do, hurting anybody. I don't even like arguing. A good healthy debate never bothers me though.

All in all, I feel like I'm an okay person to be around, and I honestly haven't seen a reason that should warrant an apology from me. If someone doesn't like who I am, that's really not my problem. However, let me know what bothers you. Maybe that'll help me in the future when I'm trying to make some real friends. In this place, friends are few and far between. Nevertheless, I've made a few here. And honestly, if I've been apologizing for everything and you noticed it, you don't have to be nice and go with it. Let me know. I can take it.