lately my life hasnt been right...this is supposed to be the time when all this shit is finally starting to come together...but for some reason its not...i shouldnt be all depressed and shit but i am...i dont know what it is...i start school in less then 2 weeks and thats all i have wanted to do for the last 2 years...i have been super excited about up until last week when i loss my job...ever since then it seems like everything has started spiraling downward at a rate that i cant control...ive been through all this before and i beat it why is it coming back?...sometimes i hate my life, i wish i could live another life were things were different were i lived in another place and i was somebody else with another name...i know i am rambling but i need to get it out otherwise ill go crazy...why did my stupid f**king job close...those soulless pricks just shut it down without thinking of what it would do to us who depended on that resturant...now ive got bills that are late and no job...no matter what i do to try and take my mind off of this shit it just keeps rearing its ugly head at me...now that im starting to be depressed im starting to feel like i am not smart enough to go to culinary school...but thats not true im going to be the most mother truckingess cook that has ever come out of that school...and this thing with this chick i meet at the gas station hasnt helped anything...oh your mr studdly but now your not but let me call you a week later and now you again...why does this stupid bitch keep calling me ...she has to know it is fucking with but what does she want...because whatever it is i dont want anything to do with it all...shit i thought that this would make me feel better but it has done the exact opposite so im gonna sign off...later
