Alot going on
Well wow things are not easy.. Losing weight is a pain in my ass... I go to the gym at least 5 times a week. I do not exepect less than a hour on the bike alone. I am a previous athletic person so I set high standards for myself. I work too hard sometimes because I feel my knee starting to give out on me.. I use to be athletic so my knees were shot to begin with. Back to the ole' ace bandage and icy hot routine i guess you can say.. Who would believe I was a cheerleader for 8 years , basketball bout the same and softball since i was old enough to play t-ball. And now look where I am at.. Blah... I am starting to get that competive frame of mind or should i say the atheletic frame of mind... There is alot on my shoulders right now.. and it defintly isnt easy not at all... It is draining me emotionally and just my head is not there it feels like it is spining around in alot of circles. I am a full time wife and mom of 2 girls and also a college student.. Blah.. I am so afraid of failing my weightloss buddies and my friends... I am soo tired of being judged and unhappy with myself so i am doing something about it. ... yes i am ashamed of myself but slowly you see me putting myself out there for everyone to know what is going on.. I could not of been at this gym thing if it wasnt for the love and support of my friends.. There is too many to list but you all know who you are so thank you from the bottom of my heart.. Love you guys..
