I sit here with a list of people that call me friend,
needing a shoulder, a prayer for my family, a note that says i'm thinking of you.
I post a notice to let these friends know where I am at and watch minutes tick by with nothing from anyone but one person.
These are people I visit almost daily when possible, whose pics I have rated a 10 regardless of what I really felt,
As a christian some things are not my cup of tea, but to each his own, who am I to judge.
I watch bulletin after bulletin of stupid crap get reposted.
While mine sits there not even viewed by 77 of the 78 who are on my friends list.
While I sit here in tears, worrying about a family member I love who has made a difference in the lives of thousands of people and their children spending the last 39 years as a bus driver. Transporting not just kids but sometimes the kids of kids she carried way back when. She lies in a hospital bed suffering the cruel effects of cancer and now her heart is acting up and they are doing all they can to get it under control so she does not throw a blood clot. she has suffered more thatn any person aside from Jesus. In the last year I have watched my father die from cancer adn now I am watching my aunt and I'm scared and hurt and want to scream and I have to hold it together for my kids cause they dont need that stress.
And as I sit here I realize no matter who i befriend or who i help ultimately I am alone and guess I should be used to it by now. Doesnt stop it from hurting still though. Ty all so much for being a support system, yeah right.
