Lately I've been starting to feel more distant from everything and everyone.
Even to the point of not caring so much so.
I think to a time when I was rather happy.
But at that point in time. Probably was the worse time in life but not as bad as it might of seem then.
For some reason that point in time I feel as if I was more alive.
Then again I'm just looking back to this time as a point of no return.
Time through the hour glass as it seems for things that used to be or once was.
I mean sure it was a great time in my life when I was younger.
But that is more distant than ever before now.
Plus nothing stays the same.... I feel more and more as if I'm changing... not sure if for the good or the bad.
But as time seems to keep going and the world does not stand still.
I can't help but feel as if I'm drifting through time now.....
What once was, will not be for long.
Far removed from all things bad and good just makes things numb.
Or all things good and bad just make the numbness even more powerful.
Time is of the essence.
If time were to stand still even for a moment it would give away an end to what this meaning full life we live.
If time were meaningless and we knew it, It would make things even more boring.
Even with time, time itself makes up for itself.... because time is a never ending story, of oneself.
Maybe I got too much time to think.
Maybe I'm to the point that time makes me not care so much anymore.
Or maybe all and all I feel time slipping away to fast or to slow.
I'm not sure as I am in this state of limbo.
Lost dreams... feelings never shared.
Feelings Of Forever.
We all have are personal closet full of demons that torment us.
Torn from sleep by the hands of time.
Even Angels in a world of oblivion still show up in time....
Sometimes even time itself can help....
But as I stand and look for a better time.... I can't help but stare back at this blank page in the hands of time for me.
For some time maybe meaningful as it maybe meaningless. But in the state of not sure where to go from here.
You can't help but feel numb to time and all time has to offer for now.
This how I feel at the moment.... seeing people I once knew gone and lost. Without a goodbye or without really ever getting to know.
Or to share ones feelings with or never given the chance to do so.
In some cases, I guess the less things change The more they never seem the same. Things change nothing stays the same over the course of time as history shows.
Torn from time by demons and angels
