bigdeepmind's blog: "thy great and powerful blog"

So you're proably the one person reading this...  I'm... I don't know, I used to hange out here for ever.. then there was a fight with an x.. that was a very kinda... toxic x.. where you delted all kind of accounts of mine.. hacked stuff, stole money.. all kinds of madness.. which is sad cause it meant, among other things.. that I've lost touch with folks.. and I suppose one thing I'm hoping is to reconnect.

I suppose another part of it is... what am I doing here in the first place.

Err... I've been here forever... since before it was called fubar.. though there where years when I didn't come on... 

I guess I loved that women where perhaps a little more naughty then the general population.. I did get to explore my own sexuality in a few sorta online relationships here and there.. and I made some good friends.

The big trouble I'm feeling now.. is that there's a certain amount of work required... to get to make a friend on here.. a certain amount of putting myself out there and... Im sorta... not feeling the ambition...  err, lets talk about this.

As a rule of thumb I don't ACTUALLY know how to approach women... in the past.. it was maybe a law of averages.. you keep at it long enough and eventually you score a conversation.. but it kinda sucks up till you get there... like sorta constant low-key rejection... it does something to your sene of well being.. which isn't awesome.

And it's also like.. I'm feeling like.. 

Ok, err how would I approach a women....  like normally I'm a very civilized politie sorta fellow in how I might go about it.. these days I tend to distinguish myself basd on things like authenticty.. and I sit here going "err, how the hell do you say anything that reads as authentic on here? 

So much raging libido on here.. not that that's a bad thing or anything.. and not that I, myself, don't have such a labido.. I mean what do you suppose brought me back here in the first place? But I also like stuff like intimacy.. with my kink and my whatever... 

I don't know.. and I've never been into the game aspect of this site.. I don't think they design it well.. I should know, I'm something of a designer...

So what could I tell you about myself? Ehh, I suppose I'm looking for trouble, adventure.. all be it of the real vareity.. really, right now, I just want a fucking conversation!!! 

I suppose I could make a crazed kink post... but that's not my mood exactly.. I'm actually a little tired... screw it.. I'll post this