brattyredhead's blog: "about me"

Hey everyone!! Well my surgery went well. But right now the pain is too much for me. So i will be off for another week or so. Thank you for all your prayers and support! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 3/11/09 Ok this friday will make 5 weeks home from the hospital!! Just an update... I have lost 20 pounds so far and i am walking anywhere from 2 to 4 miles a day. Unless the weather is cold that it starts snowing. I have never been so proud of myself for being able to do this. Also another good thing is im going back to work this sunday. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 3/18/2009 Ok i went back to work on Sunday and today is Wednesday. Well things havent been going well. I have been getting sick and sore. So i dont really have the energy to be online. I will try to be more on later this week, but for now i am taking sometime off to heal. If you dont feel like bombing my contest i will understand.

I am in a bombing contest to win a VIP for a month. I need 8000 comments to win. So anyone that helps me, I will return the love. Here is the link to the page that needs to be bomb. http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1573245&albumid=1561612&i=334518779&idx=1 Thanks in advance for any help i get!!! Oh and you will find you have to post a comment and then refresh the page to post another.

Before you guys think this is how i feel now, its not i wrote 2 years ago this January 2009. Life What is life? Is there a happy ending? Will God still love you if you take your life? Sometimes i wonder if im the only person in this world that feels so alone. I could be with a crowd of people and still very alone. I wonder if this feeling will ever go away. I wonder if this feeling will go away if i kill myself? I just dont understand how someone can feel so alone and not feel the love around them. Tonite i decided it was the nite for me to go. I called my family and told them all goodbye. They cried and told me not too. How could they care now. They didnt before. Why is now important? Should i stay or go? I wish i had an answer. Oh well i guess i will stay around one more day and see what happens.

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Son of a nutcracker!

Ok i want this made clear so everyone can understand what i am going thru. First i have been put into menopause! If you dont know what that is then stand in front of a wall and beat your head against it several times. All the while there is a fire at your feet! Sounds funny huh? It isnt. Then to top that all off i have been diagnosed with severe depression and severe anxiety. So with being put into menopause(which causes depression) and having depression i am fighting an uphill battle. Im not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me. That is the last thing i want. I just want everyone to realize that my life is really hard right now. You guys see the away message to the one i hurt on here im sorry. I am sorry but im not apologizing anymore. I cant control some of my mood swings. Im not being snotty or bratty or stuck up.... im fighting a battle to keep my wits. See 2 years ago January i tried to kill myself cause of my depression. I was lucky to have some very close family and friends that came and helped me get help. I just want all to understand that what i am battling on a daily basis isnt easy.But i pull thru with the help of my kids and friends.