I woke up this morning expecting the worse, much like I always do...I usually wake up hoping the day will pass quickly as I expect the normal everyday routines of fighting with teenagers, feeling like crap, having my "boyfriend" treat me like a stranger who never wants to do anything, my best friend treat me like he hates me, my ex belittling me and a crying baby to take care of? Have I forgotten anything oh yeah usually a couple calls from my mom reminding me what a crazy mess my life is and why cant I be more like my perfect sister and brother...I guess that about covers it all ..
I woke up this morning dreading the day ahead, to top it all off its my Dad's B-day which should be a happy day but seeing as hes been deceased for over half my life I never do much on his birthday but sit and cry and look at pictures of him all day...Not today while I thought about him I had this feeling like he was with me the whole day giving me some sort of strength and power to live..it was weird and as I woke up expecting the worst my 14 year old went to school and was pleasant when she came home (she even helped me clean), My 18 year old was unbelievably nice and not mouthy the whole day and my 17 year old the drama Queen had none !! The baby was good for most of the day and my friends were incredible for the most part, My mom apologized for how hard shes been on me lately - Both My exes were extremely nice and my boyfriend actually wanted to be with me - ok so for awhile I was actually convinced I was surrounded by aliens and they replaced my family...Where on earth could they have gone??lol but I dont wanna know and I dont wanna find out I will keep the replacements and hope for a miracle like today every day!! Thanks God for the change and the peace!
xoxo -Me! Ro
