maniac756's blog: "A Poem..."

Every time that I look back, I can see your pretty face Knowing all that lies between us is lots of empty space But I turn around, as we continue on our separate ways This was all a dream I hope to forget about one day There wasn't any hurt, I never saw a bigger smile The happiness was one I hadn't felt in quite awhile It was us against the world, as the stress began to pile Thoughts in my head of walking down the aisle Then you chose to relive a past that you once knew The lies became much greater, and the distance grew One day all of your wishes seemed to come true If only you realized, my dream was to be with you You lost that sparkle that I once saw in your eyes You torture your own heart and don't even know why You ignore your problems and hope they'll all pass by Every night I lay in my bed, I can still hear you cry Now you sit still, not a place that you wanted to be Take a look back, tell me what it is that you see I smile cause I'm strong, and I'll always be happy I'm only sad that you would choose sadness over me

Thoughts run wild escape through the air Thoughts of the one you wished was there Your choice was wrong now a blank stare As you turn to find they’ve disappeared You say sorry but your words fall flat You’ve lost all there’s no getting back You shed a tear your emotions lack You feel numb as reality gives you a smack You live you learn but you can never forget The ones you lost the ones you upset Your tears come strong your face soaking wet You live you learn but you can never forget

With you in my arms I lay in this bed, With nothing but your beauty to fill my head I don't wanna sleep, Cause dreams aren't enough To ease my mind, I need your touch How do I explain what your presence does to me I forget about the pain I forget about the bleed I forget about the things that make my life hell I block out everything I hate about myself It's comforting to know that your there If your ever in trouble I'll be right here As you lay motionless right by my side I slowly drift away holding you tight I love the way that you move on the floor I love how you wish every night on a star I admire the way that you think of me first I think it's cute that you don't like to curse When you kiss me It drives me insane With one look in your eyes I forget my name The curves of your body make me feel blessed You always give me a hug when I'm feeling stressed Your not what I wanted, your so much more How was I so blind not to see you before Now that your here I don't want you to go I love you more than you'll ever know The strength that we have will never let us down We got each other's back when there's no way out The thing that I like the most about you Is the fact that no matter what.... Our love will always stay true.

it is there, it is strong,it won't go away you look around, try to forget that feeling in your gut as you twist and turn you know what it means the impulse will fade,the screaming will stop the music will change,but the song will continue youll reach a crossroads and youll turn back the road youve traveled has disappeared opportunity will pass you by, you wont flinch only when the door is locked will you see the truth a rock falls from the sky,a thought from your head smash the windows, the glass is tempting you have what you dont truly want you want what is swaying back and forth in front of your eyes put yourself on the ledge and the cliff might crumble stay where its safe and you die never knowing sometimes the games are fun, sometimes not you win the prize for the easiest target you leave, your dreams unfulfilled you change your mind, run, but the game is over

a tear swells in your eye as you think of the days past it starts to trickle down your cheek but you wipe it fast put a smile on now and you can stop the rain but another thought comes of all your pain its too late now a streak goes down your face shorty after more start to join the race the more you try to stop the more you start to cry thoughts rushing past as you close your eyes a song comes on and you listen to its words its sadly true, everything that you heard by now your palms are soaked with your tears you tremble the same you would your fears Soon your eyes run out and turn crimson red you rub them and try to make your way to bed hopefully the next day will be a happier one but those sad tears will continue to come...

When the world seems cold and there’s nowhere to go It’s the darkness When your wills' been drained and your heart is slowed It’s the darkness When you see the light fading and the sky getting small It’s the darkness When your legs are weakened and you can’t stand at all It’s the darkness I’ve seen it, I know it, my dreams do not lie It’s the darkness Struck with terror even after I opened my eyes It’s the darkness A cruel truth of the reality we face It’s the darkness Our memories soon stripped and laid to waste It’s the darkness When friendships are torn and blood is spilled It’s the darkness When death is cheered and prisons are filled It’s the darkness When love is lost and hatred is expected It’s the darkness When normality is false and calm becomes hectic It’s the darkness It’s coming now I can see it from here It’s the darkness Quicker, faster, it all starts to disappear It’s the darkness I’ve lost my way can’t think straight anymore It’s the darkness It’s over, evil has won, reality is no more It’s the darkness The darkness is us, we are the darkness It’s the darkness

As I stand atop this thundering mountain, It's my balance that I struggle to maintain, One false move and I plummit to my death, This kind of weight makes me go insane. It's a pain I deal with that I try to hide Emotions I keep locked away, Gotta stay strong or else I'll fade, And I can't let that happen on any day. Forward and backward I've started to sway, It's getting harder to stand up tall, I've got to find the soldier within, Otherwise I think I'm destined to fall. I've been up here it seems like forever, And I don't know what I should think, For now I'll just keep goin steady, And not allow my ship to sink. More and more my back begins to break, This pressure builds it weighs a ton, Still I live without complaint, I'm not gonna quit til' my job is done. Prepared I walk through this valley of death, Stubborn to the ways I've come to know, Motionless I stand atop this mountain, Staring at the life that lies below.

I woke up this morning with dry eyes From crying all late last night Too many reasons for the tears I've lost But every memory worth the cost I know I shouldn't blame myself But I can't come to blame anyone else Things happen that are beyond our control Horrible the feeling of her body cold I have to deal with this pain I feel No more veins made out of steel Can not lose the rest of my life Because of the one I lost that night She's with me here in spirit I believe Telling me to go on and catch my dreams Love is key hold it in your heart Never let anything rip you apart Crying still as I write this piece Trying to bring my self some peace Wish someone was here to ease my pain But no one's here I cry in vain Seems alone I have to continue through Never denying my love for her is true Soon I'll wake and there'll be no tears The day I see, my eyes are clear Don't know what to think so I don't anymore I Just let these teardrops continue to outpour People take for granted what they mean to me Passing me by as if I were a simple dream Feeling no appreciation drives a man insane Quickly being forgotten just like yesterday But he'll just keep it bottled deep inside Hoping for someone who won't let him hide

figure this out The reluctance portrayed by the open public To watch this display of bloodbath and pain is known through the land as ill advised judgement and not to be confused with a man deemed insane it is not conscious thought hat opens our eyes but lack of frustration that bombards our brains its highly unlikely life awaits in the skies but till i find out ill dance in th rain The valley of kings is designs sure death not told is the truth all men wish they knew by now time winds low through this test his alternate ego laughs as its split into two The neuroticism held with virtuous tone has been duplicated by the rage it controls its done to prevent men from being alone and to stop the dungeon from eating our souls The willfullness of injustice is what i seek hearing voices scream from within my throat forced towards a future labeled sorry and bleek never understanding a sound that i wrote All times throughout instill within craziness divided amongst the souls acts of depravity dont equlize sin unless its known as the valley of coals the scandalous truth of all thats known is never scrutinized for being too vain the vampires wielded all blood form bones to let us know the falsities of pain Its up to us to feel the destruction destroyers destroyed when they walked on water erronius minds connected through induction a word derived from meaningful slaughter whats not realized through basic incision is determined to surround a core sensation to represent a mind enlightened prison given to those who suspend ellation...

I told myself that I wouldn't cry when it came to be this time we all knew it was on it's way I just didnt know it would happen today I put it on my shoulders and carry on thinking of the life that lies beyond just something else to tear up my mind I've fallen apart my pieces hard to find I've been to the bottom so i know it could be worse even though I'm not believed i truly feel cursed I'm told one thing but it seems like another i wish i knew a quick way to get it all together I talk to myself for hours everyday finding sometimes there are no words to say I can't help the way things look for me I don't know what people actually see I know I'm being negative and thats not the way i am but it's not like anybody actually gives a damn the ones i thought did i just cant tell anymore so I'll just walk this road till i find an open door If I happen to make it out alive I won't know how I managed to survive maybe something i didn't know was there will give me the strength i need to persevere.