Every day a struggle, every moment I feel pain.
The cold and snow taunts me, and I ache when it rains!
I remember my youth, when I could do it all.
Nothing use to phase me, nothing made me fall.
While my body was strong, my spirit was weak.
I was pushed around and picked on because I was timid and meek.
As time went on life changed me, I grew a thicker skin.
I could'nt let them hurt me, I would'nt let them win!
I changed how people saw me, and how i saw myself.
I became the man I am now, and put the old one on a shelf.
Tattoos and rings, forever mark my flesh.
They make others see the real me, and help my life to mesh.
Memories of what I've done and where my life has been.
Reminders of what not to do, and where to never go again!
Each one part of my history, telling stories from my past.
Opening up others eyes, to the man they once labeled as an outcast.
My apperance has been altered, the look outside has changed.
The inner me is still here, feeling lonely and deranged.
I still see the old me, a shy fat kid who never could fit in.
Every time a meet a beautiful girl, I go right back to being "him".
I stumble on my words, and can't look eye to eye.
No matter what I do I cannot let him die.
My former self still haunts me, and holds me back at times.
I try to pretend hes dead and gone, but i can't hide from my crime.
The sin that I must pay for was the betrayal of my soul.
I struggle, fight, and battle because I once refused to come out of my hole.
Everyday he slips away, just a little more.
In time my true self, will have its chance to soar!
My confidence is growing, my pride is building steam.
One day I'll get beyond him, he can't kidnap my dream!
Though my body is racked with pain, each moment of the day.
My heart and soul drive me, and will never let me fade away!
Give me a chance to show you, to let you into my heart and mind.
Don't judge me on my past, or "look" you might love what you will find!
