· I am unable to have children but do not feel sorry about it – I think God made sure I did not have that “Oh I have to have a baby” gene - I have known since I was 8 yrs old I could not have a child – that is not to say I do not like kids or would not enjoy a readymade family.
· I have only felt loved by a non-family member once in my life for about 5 months – but that does not mean I am not loving or uncaring – just the opposite – I have so much love to give – there have been times where I feel like I could be loved, but until I meet in person, one never really knows
· I love to sing and will break out in a song if given even one word that reminds me of a song I love
· I love to draw and paint and am fairly good at it I am told
· My career has been centered on teaching students with multiple disabilities and I have loved it – they mean the world to me – unfortunately I have to take a disability retirement from that – however they will always hold a special place in my heart
· I am hoping to make a new career working with a company that helps the environment, people, or animals.
· I am a straight shooter – I do not beat around the bush – I do not mean to be rude when I talk at all – it comes from 16 years of teaching my students and having to be point blank with them in order for them to understand – please be patient as I re-acclimate into the adult world – I have a lot of years of straight talk to undo – though much of it I will stick to - lol
· I do not play games and will not tolerate others who do – if you cause me to be in the middle of a game, then you can forget ever having anything to do with me again
· I am a HUGE introvert (personality is INFP – the explanation of it fits me exactly) – HUGE – have always been a wallflower at parties, dances, events, you name it – once I meet you and feel comfortable, I come alive and have often been described as “animated”
· I have a fear of: Broken Glass; Crowds; Calling people on the phone – even businesses; Being alone all of my life; and Not making a difference in this world
· I am perfectly ok sitting at home reading a book as opposed to going out to a bar– or some other place – Hello – Introvert – however, if I am with someone, I enjoy going out
· I have 2 tattoos and plans for 3 more – I will not get any that do not have a yellow rose in them and that do not have special meaning to me
· I once had a wild skunk on my head while camping – I was once bitten by a leopard – I have played with alligators – I have held a legless lizard – I have let an African millipede and a Madagascar Hissing Cockroach crawl over me – I have held a Opossum, Cockatoo, Owl, Bat, and Falcon –
· I grew up camping Pre-1840 – that is primitive as hell – we took showers when it rained or we warmed up water out over the fire or we took baths in the river – camping for 10 days at a time like that – all clothing, bedding, seating, and kitchen equipment must be from that time period – totally love it and miss it so much – have pictures of my mom pregnant with me so literally all my life until about 2 years into my marriage – Learned to shoot black powder guns at age 8 – throw knife and hawk at age 5 – have shot many other types of guns but do not own my own
· I miss doing outdoor activities and hope to find someone who loves them – I particularly enjoy camping, boating, fishing, sitting by a campfire, sitting on the porch watching the sunset or reading a book
· Dad raised me to be mostly self-sufficient – I know how to use most work-shop tools and would love to have my own work shop – dad is even willing me some of his really nice tools when he dies (no hurry dad!!!!!!!) I helped him build a play house, shed, boat-port, rebuild our camper and roof the house – each summer a different project – all done by the time I was in the 9th grade – and I don’t mean I held the wood either – I was measuring, cutting, sanding, leveling, etc. When he built his house about 10 yrs ago in TN, I was down there helping and some of the locals were mesmerized – dad said the women down there don’t have a clue what tools are let alone how to use them – dad raised me right
· My mom was not just my mom but also my best friend – sadly we lost her to lung cancer Thanksgiving Day of 1997 – she had smoked for 30 years – if you love your family, quit for them – not a day goes by that I don’t think about her and want to pick up the phone and call her – even after 16 years
· My Grandma and Grandpa were two major influences in my life. They taught me how to be the best person I can be. Grandma was the closest living example I have ever seen to what Jesus would have us be like. When trying to make sure I am doing right, I think What Would Grandma Do – if I live to be ¼ of the woman she was I will have been successful. Grandpa taught me how to laugh – he had the best twinkle in his eye – he and I were extremely close. He was always picking on people and he took it as an insult if you did not pick back at him – that is how I am – if I pick on you, it’s because I like you – if I don’t pick on you – I either don’t know you yet, or I am not comfortable around you, or I don’t like you. If I do pick on you – PLEASE pick right back!! I love it as it makes me feel accepted. I will never be mean or unkind with my teasing, just as he never was
· I have had no doubt in my mind about God and Jesus since a very young age – After reading “Heaven is for Real” I wonder if I did not have a similar experience – I had been extremely ill like the boy in that book – I had 105 temp for a week, spiking to 107 for a few hours – my norm is 96 not 98, so that is even higher than it seems – I do not remember seeing Jesus or anything – but I have always known that God kept me alive for a reason – I don’t know what that reason is, except that I am to make a difference in this world somehow – I have TRIED to remember to place my trust in God and let Him lead my life instead of me leading my life – Right now I am being even more diligent about handing my life into His hands and trusting His signs – I do what I can, but leave the rest to Him
· I am a Christian – obviously from above statement – but I am not like so many of the “fake” Christians as I call them – I was taught by Jesus to love unconditionally – I do not judge others for what they are or what they do (unless they wrong me – but even then I forgive them) – it is not my place to judge – He teaches us to love our brothers and sisters – period – so I do – regardless of sex, sexual orientation, race, political views, religion, etc – if someone makes a mistake, guess what? I have made tons myself! Who am I to judge? Own up to it and move on – ask forgiveness and move on – but most importantly, I have learn to forgive myself and those who have done me wrong
· Words others have used to describe me – whether I agree with them or not – outgoing, talkative, animated, kind, caring, loving, genuine, quiet, reserved, happy, bright eyed, bright, intelligent, book-smart but common sense dumb, sexy, curvy, classy sexy, cute, pretty eyes, weirdo*, crazy*, strange*, cuckoo*, nuts*, country girl (starred items I take as great compliments! Who wants normal?)
· I sometimes talk “normal” and sometimes talk with a country accent. It is not on purpose. If you are around me and I am speaking with a country accent, consider it the highest of compliments. It only comes out when I feel extremely relaxed. Otherwise my self-conscious seems to feel it needs to be prim and proper – which is not really me, but that is the teacher in me coming out, at least, that is what I think it going on. I do use y’all and all y’all even with “proper speak” though - J
· I am not now nor have I ever been a city girl. I am country through and through if you cannot tell that about me by now. I can deal with living in a city if I have to, like I am right now, but it is not where my heart is at all and I will never be happy spending all my time in the city. I must get out into the country. I like the quiet life and quiet times away from the hustle and bustle of life. I am never afraid to get dirty and I love running around barefoot. I have even told my family they better not bury me with socks or shoes or I will haunt them – lol. I love trucks though I do not currently own one. I enjoy roughing it, though it is harder on my body these days. I have lots of great stories to tell.