illoki's blog: "a glass of perspective"

Another presidential election is coming up on us and I've watched some of the jockeying for "poll" position by most of the major players. What I wanna know is, does anyone besides me think we're just as screwed with the pickins in this lot so far as we were with the last buncha no-brained loonies? Seriously, it seems to me like the big two don't give a crap about anything but the bankroll any more. Whatever happened to "We the people"? OK, that's it.

Sad stories and healing. May of this year my nieces stepdaughter (my great niece), great nieces mother and her mothers fiance and younger half brother died in a car wreck. Four friends, people I loved, gone in an eyeblink, my family was shaken to the core. That's the basic background. Now my great niece, Champagne, was probably one of the coolest people I ever met, at 15 years old she was more together than most adults I know, her theme song was Move Along by the All-American rejects. After a couple of months of moping I realized that this was a good idea and since she and I were both fans of ink, though I'd never been inked until this tat, I decided that those two words would be the beginning of a memorial tat for all of them. The rest of the memorial will follow the concept of favorite songs but will have to wait until I save up some more money. Now you know a small part of a big story. One thing I want to close with on this, all of these people died knowing they were loved, I learned long ago to always treat everyone as if I may never see them again, to let them know I loved them and cared for them if I were to be gone tomorrow... Little did I know that it wouldn't be me that went before them this time. My question to you is, do the people in your life know they really matter to you?

Over the years the conversation varies from person to person but the main thrust always comes down to person a is in a bind emotionally... They're stuck in a stressful life situation but they love someone they want to be with but being with that person is going to cause another person pain, or make them an outcast with their crowd, or deep down inside they're not sure that what they want is right but they want to be with this person because they feel happy with them. Person b usually tries different approaches, do you really love whoever? What about how you feel about person x, and didn't the current object of affection cheat on you/someone else? And the conversation usually degenerates into do whatever you want and person a makes the wrong choice 9 times out of 10 and is miserable... Having been on both sides of that conversations I'm fairly sure the odds aren't too exaggerated... although I do believe I have over simplified things by a stretch. The thing is, at our core we are powered by love and love doesn't make bad choices if we are honest with our selves. Sometimes that means turning away from "sure happiness" from that someone that is tempting us in a dark time, sometimes it means you have to pull away from people that depend on you and stand up for yourself and the love you feel. Yeah, either way it'll cause some hurt, but if you're acting from the core of love you carry you will see things through, love can cut deeply but love also heals... how soon the healing starts depends on making the decision, that tough choice, as soon as possible. Angling in "all the factors" is a delaying tactic people can seldom afford. Love knows what to do, the rest is up to you. If you made it this far tyvm for your time, hope it was worth it.

if I wrote that I was 12 feet tall and originally from mars on my profile page if anyone would even notice?

I'm digging it here so far. I have a weakness for bells and whistle and fubar has plenty of them.

Damn, it'd take some major beer goggles to rate me that high IRL.