ZEN's blog: "YOUR EVER SO INVITING"

Gonna get in the car with a smile and the burn that I put on my arm the day you went away girl and I probably wont come back around agian. [repeat] Gonna drive all night through the red lights flying, over the hill to the county line blind, forgetting to forget that you're not mine. [Chorus 1] Kiss your Appocolyps for the last, last time runaway runaway runaway I can't find anytime you think it changed your mind, [Chorus 2] Anytime you want jump back too me anytime, jump back to me anytime, jump back to me anytime, come back one more time anytime. There's a place where I go to take the edge of the day, when the radios up your face fades away, flicker flicker dim and fade to black. With a back pack packed, with a mug and a map. Gonna drive too fast, Gonna not look back, light the night with a blow torch and a match. [Chorus 1+2] Got no time reason or rime, not gonna stop, gonna ride all night [repeat three times] [Chorus 2] (without you want) [Chorus 1 (twice)] For the last time [4 times]

"GHOST" by ~The 69 EYES~ I've been around in the runaway places, I've seen them all where the angels bleed, I've lost and found all your traces, I guess I tried for the reason you loved me, Until you find out So hard to be there when you need me, When you try not to find, So hard to be there when you need me, When you try not to mind, There's no-one home tonight, Ghost What comes around the fall embraces, And seals it all till the winter's deep, What's been love the pain replaces, I guess I lied for the reason you loved me Until you find out So hard to be there when you need me, When you try not to find, So hard to be there when you need me, When you try not to mind, There's no-one home tonight,

Tell her you love her in the random moments, Hold her tight at nights, show her you need her, Hold her hand in any public place, Display your feelings for her in a poem and read it to her no matter how it sounds,give her your attention even when the guys r around, when ur watching a movie with her kiss her and whisper something romantic in her ear even if it sounds corny,dont be affraid to embarrse urself in public to put a smile on her face, remind her at times where you two first met,give her an orchid at random times to suprise her and to show her she means the world to you, never get jealous if shes talking to another guy cause shes already ur girl and u have nothing to worry about if ur treating her great, dont question what shes doing when shes hangin with her friends(remember woman need theyre space and dont need to be hassled), dont be affraid to stand up for her to anyone if u love her then shes number one on ur list of importance, AND REMEMBER ALWAYS REMEMBER HER HAPPINESS COMES BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE AMD TRUE LOVE IS WHERE U WILL DO ANYTHING FOR HER TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF ITS GIVING UP WHAT U WANT THE MOST AND GIVING HER WHAT SHE NEEDS!!!!!!!!! I wrote this so guys learn how they need to be when they love a woman....cause guys in a relationship its not all about you, its about her she comes first before urself!!! if ur ever unhappy with ur girl then dont get mad at her, talk to her nicely and calmly and see where u both need improvement theres always room for improvement cause NO ONE IS PERFECT...SO THERES ALWAYS TIME TO IMPROVE URSELVES GUYS!!!!

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My life starts out like this.............. All my life my mom resented me and always hide secrets from me. My father was a great guy before everything turned. My sister never use to be depressed until the day when I was 12 my mom kicked my dad out cause she didnt love him and she only wanted his money..She took my sister and I choose to live with my father...Ever since then my mom has always hated me and thinks down on me..My father quickly got remarried to a woman who never liked me and her daughters always treated me like crap..I got blamed for everything that went wrong in their lifes, They ran my life through the wall telling me I was ugly and telling me how I can never do anything right and how I was worthless...my father turned his back on me and I was alone for 6 years of my life, They made me cry in pain at nights...I learned that my step mother never wanted me to be apart of her family and that they were just money hungry like my mother, I tried all I could for my father to make everyone happy by taking all the blame and being their slave.. when I turned 18 I left my dads house in the middle of my senoir year and lived with my friends parents house and quickly after finishing high school, I waged a war against my father and my step mother and left oregon with a girl who I thought I loved only to have been used for her twisted game and then grabbed my heart of my chest and stepped on it...I then moved back to oregon and I moved to lebanon with my grandma and my disabled uncle...I soon realized that if I couldnt be apart of my step moms life then that I would atleast go over there and tell her how sorry I was but when I did all she did was turn her back on me and tell me that I didnt mean a word of it!!!!! for two years I was affraid to love anyone else cause I was affraid of pain but now I see life is Pleasure and Pain. I also learned my moms terrible secret of me and that is that when she was pregnant with me she never wanted me and only had me to keep my father and his money in her life!!!! one side of my family doesnt help me at all and the other side hates me and resents me so everyday my hearts on the edge and I try to stay positive cause if I dont fight back the darkness in my heart then how many more poeple would I hurt!!!! well thats my past and its just a straight story I didnt make so dramtic cause drama I learned it retarded in everyway cause all it does is hurt poeple so who ever reads this please dont say sorry cause theres nothing to be sorry about I learned that cause of everything that happened Im a better person cause of it...Nothing can be changed about my past but I can change my future and thats why I dont look back....I dont care anymore if my step mom doesnt forgive me cause atleast I admitted my mistakes and thats all im happy about it is that I can see my mistakes and accept it and change and move forward in life!!!!

Okay, Tonight I just couldnt wait anymore to see hot fuzz so tonight I dragged Nick with me and we saw it....afterwards we drove around Corvallis in a Huge Cady!!!! We went to Mc'ds and we decided we would pay with a $100 dollar bill and we got change back of $91.56 in $5 dollar bills and to top off the funniest night ever, We switched cars and drove one of the cars at my house that has a burnt out tail light and decided see how many times we would get pulled over well we got pulled over three times and 2 of the 3 cops that pulled us over laughed and told us to keep driving!!!! well now im wide awake and Pimpin out my music file with fresh new music and bored so if anyone wants to talk then hit me up!!!! ANYWAYS PEACE GANGSTA'S!!! HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT MONDAY LIKE I DID!!!! ^_^ Yours Truly, ~TOMMY~

my days feel shortened, Life feels theartened, Every Minuete being Consitant, Hours go by, Time gets lost, a light shines through, Pain goes from suffering to happiness, Hearts fill with life, Souls become understanding, Hopes fly high, Dreams come clearer, days stay the same, only one thing changes.....Life....see it as something beautifull, it never stays the same, Consitantly Changing, Neverending, Life is Beautifull, Life is Living through the bad and the good, Life is misunderstud, one thing that no one sees that Life its self is Beautifull, things happen everyday, days stay the same, but life is endlessly changing and Neverending!!! I wrote this in hopes that everyone see that there will always be good and evil in life and the world it will never change, the only thing that can change is the way you look at life and see that staying mad will only keep you standing still but if you deal with the pain and stay positive in the end then you move forward looking for the future then standing still staring at the past!!!!!

free will is the ultimate gift, u can choose to let someone in or not but sooner or later it (life) will all be over!!! Everything was made to be broken so that it can be put back together again!!! Life is great even in pain and suffering cause emotions r a beautifull and gorgoues in everyway, if your emotionless then life isnt worth living and you begin to hate everything and everyone not knowing if its gunna hurt u or not but life is pain and pleasure!!! Love is Pain cause if you love someone and ur with them then ur happy and feel safe but then they r gone even for a moment then u feel alone and lost in pain!!! Every emotion can be connected and be understud if u quit looking for anwser then it will just come to you like it came to me today!!! Life is important and if ur affraid of pain then ur affraid of living...cause without pain there would be no happiness and without pain then you wouldnt know if u truly existed or not!!! Many of you may never understand what Im talking about someday U might see it, U cant see it in something or find it, it just happens to you and you know from then on that LIFE CAN BE GREAT IF U TRULY WANT IT TO BE!!!!

A Catholic Priest, a Pentecostal Preacher and a Rabbi all served as chaplains to college students in northern Michigan. They would gather two or three times a week for coffee and to talk shop. One day, someone made the comment that preaching to people isn't really all that difficult. A real challenge would be to preach to a bear. One thing led to another and they decided to do an experiment. They would each go into the woods, find a bear, preach to it and attempt to convert it. Seven days later they're all together to discuss the experience. Father Flannery, who has his arm in a sling, is on crutches, and has various bandages, went first. "Well," he says, "I went into the woods to find a bear. When I found him I began to read to him from the Catechism. Well, that bear wanted nothing to do with me and began to slap me around. So I quickly grabbed my Holy Water, sprinkled him and, Holy Mary, Mother of God, he became as gentle as a lamb. The bishop is coming next week to give him First Communion and Confirmation." The Reverend Billy Bob spoke next. He was in a wheelchair, with an arm and both legs in casts and an IV drip. In his best fire and brimstone oratory he claimed, "WELL brothers, you KNOW that we don't sprinkle! I went out and I FOUND me a bear. Then I began to read to my bear from God's HOLY WORD! But that bear wanted nothing to do with me. So I took HOLD of him and we began to wrestle. We wrestled down one hill, UP another, and DOWN another until we came to a creek. So I quick DUNKED him and BAPTIZED his hairy soul. Just like you said, he became as gentle as a lamb. We spent the rest of the day praising Jesus." They both looked down at the Rabbi, who was lying in a hospital bed. He was in a body cast and traction, with IV's and monitors running in and out of him. He was in bad shape. The Rabbi looks up and said, "Looking back on it, circumcision may not have been the best way to start things out with my bear."

my Days Get longer, I fear theyre harder...I find myself at times debating, why did u have go and do what you did, you twore my heart apart, you broke the family apart...I trusted you until end, and once again I look back in time to see im so alone, I cant fight this feeling til its gone...I shed that one single tear to see your fear knowing what I knew o so along what you've been keep from me all this years, I know now its alittle F**ked up, I've had it with all this fears, I begin to forward to see where I've gone and I gotta im tired of this hating, I just want you to go now and never come back, never show ur face again near here and maybe someday I may forgive for what you did.............. Hey everyone, its not what U think, its not about a girl I liked, its about a parent I had and how her decision in the end of it all made me so very untrusting to everyone... Sometimes like now she never calls and it bothers me the way she'll never own up to what she did and what she kept from me!!!! anyways im sorry everyone im just letting go of somethings I have to get out sometimes!!!!! U dont have to comment on this if u dont want too, I just want some people out there to know that any lil decision may end it all for anyone u ever love!!!! anyways ttyl u all laterz!!! Dont worry Im in a Great Mood ^_^ dont get me wrong im just thinking back to the time in my childhood when my family split apart. So dont worry ^_^ im in a great mood!!!!! love, ~TommY~