TimGod's blog: "Writings"

Piece by piece reality crumbles around you as you sit there denying you have control over what is going on in your world so you sit and watch and wonder why the pieces won't go back together.

Finding my salvation in the eyes of my angel, unable, unwilling to find it in her longing arms. Wanting to feel her tender embrace so badly, yet fear of that touch bringing more harm. Knowing that to give in would leave us shattered, knowing I would if only my feelings did matter. Overwhelmed by this feeling of love, I leave her to fly free, my dove.

Tonight, this night as I sleep, my dreams of us make me weep, to have a love so pure, to know, to see that dream come true for sure. If this be but a dream then I wish to never wake, but this is not as it seems, for we are not a dream, we are living flesh, with love and happiness to rival the best. Waking from walking a dream, crushed down again with the rest

To dream of dreams come true, be us but a dream, No but the dream come true. This dream of love, this vision of happiness, waking life, our love relaxing, our love come, our love felt, our love grew out of fairy tale swept, We need not dream of what could be for our love is what should be. In color so soft and light so bright, our dreams of love feel so right.

As a gift it is given, with scant recognition of thanks. Premium value denied its worth, for this greatest gift is given on earth. Freely given with hearts fondest wishes, rejected by unwanted attention. Honestly mistaken for advances, love for lust, compassion for obsession. Unseen for what it is, the truth twisted under jaded eyes. Lost in the tangled past of barbed lies, severed from the truth of love before the dawn of understanding. Innocence lost in the crushing swells of misguided thought, tender warmth traded for stone cold shell. The pain buried deep within, glimpsed through soulful eyes filled with a longing to be freed of the undeserved chains on her heart. Searching for a way to deliver, to snap through the webs thick weave. To lift her free from the of callous hearts. Searching for salvation in the arms of another, history of others mirroring our own. Within ourselves lies out salvation, lifted upon the wings of love from another. To save each other we save ourselves.

What price laid upon love, what sacrifice does happiness demand. To be freely given yet to pay upon reception, blood and tears to bring forth heartfelt desire, washing away to leave us cleansed with the radiant warmth of love's true happiness. Ever fleeting though it is. Ever sweeter with each lingering taste. This yearning, the longing grows each day.

Step one looking at me with hollow eyes keep feeding me all your lies keeping a catalog of my flaws which one will be the last straw six steps away from perfection remaking me in your reflection it's all for me you say change is good for a new day Step Two so you took me for a trip trained monkey taught to sit fresh new script to flip the old one not such a hit out of style lines not so hip seeing as you don't give a shit don't give me any more of your lip thought you could get by on your ass and tit but your free ride done jumped ship Step Three Seeking a spot for boots to grind Hollowed out shell with withered rind No more akin to its own kind Vainly chasing that which you can't find Sorry life doesn't have its own rewind Hard to see devastation when blind Tangled webs we weave often bind A deal made in hell and in blood signed Twilight's grace stolen with nothing to remind Lost on the shores of a callous mind Granted was taken and dust left behind