Fallen Lilith's blog: "Writings from Behind the Veil"

Once, a maid as fair as the seas in early fire’s fall was bound by horrid curse, To remain with in the heart’s Tower held high above the touch of loving embrace. Her tears would shine upon the land like the reflections of the mirrors plight. She grew weary of the shadowed halls in which all around her hung not light and life, But shades of the hollow images the tear stained mirror did project. On one warm and sparkling eve’ng the maid with lilies wove into her soul Did chance to see a Knight as cool as an Autumn kiss and as lovely as the waning moon. Trice she stepped across her chamber-nay the prison of her heart. For just a closer glimpse of that which at that moment held her lite, love, heart and soul. His eye returning the stare as clear and calm as summers breeze, twas love she did feel there? For his eyes, his words did state so, each herald love of truth, loyalty, faithfulness, compassion. With each breath the maiden fought the very emotion that tugged at her heart and soul. For if his words and eyes spoke untruth, the very curse she had avoided for years Would in fact come to pass and not a tower but frozen heart, dead inside would be the prison. And so with a lovers abandon did the maiden of lilies toss the mirror of tears Trusting in the Dark Knights words did surrender the whole of her heart to love. But as all things do and as innocence is released to betrayals venom did she learn For trusting words and eyes can you become blind to more harsher realities. The mirror did shatter made of it’s loving lonely tears and encased the lily fair to ice. In the vile words, attacking swords of misplaced blame, and selfish intentions Created a fallen Angel scars have formed where white lilies with in a soul did bloom, From the frozen wastelands of a Lily Maid’s song was born a jaded lily Whom feels only empty, calls the cold breath of the north pentacles Crone No longer a gentle hand of maiden fair, but the hollowed heart of Lilith. Whom do you congratulate for such a strange transformation? Aw, my friend you know him well. Look with in your own selfish mirror And meet the Dark Knight. Destroyer of the Lily Maid. Creator of Lilith frozen to the soul.

I couldn't save you from the start Love you so it hurts my soul Can you forgive me for trying yet failing Your silence makes me hold my breath Time has passed me by. You gave up the fight You left me behind All that's done is forgiven You'll always be within my heart I know deep inside All that's done is forgiven. I watched the clouds drifting away Still the sun can't warm my face You believed it was destined to go wrong You were looking for your great escape To chase your demons away. You gave up the fight You left me behind All that's done is forgiven You'll always be within my heart I know deep inside All that's done is forgiven.

Take away, These hands of darkness. Reaching for my soul. Now, the cold wind, blows out my candles. Feeling, only fear, without any hope. A thousand dark moons. A thousand winters long. A million fallen stars, the candle burns in the room. We try not to forget, they live through us. Slowly they die away at every candle's end. A thousand dark moons. A thousand winters long. A million fallen stars, the candle burns in the room. We try not to forget, they live through us. Slowly they die away at every candle's end

I did my best to please you But my best was never good enough Somehow you're only able to see All I am not Did you ever look behind Aren't you afraid of the pieces you'll find You said I failed you But you have failed me too It's so easy to destroy And condemn The ones you do not understand do you ever wonder if it's justified It's so easy to destroy And condemn The ones you do not understand in your life why didn't you ever try You show no regrets About all the things you did or said You said I failed you But believe me You failed me too

The world seems not the same, Though I know nothing has changed. It's all my state of mind, I can't leave it all behind. Have to stand up to be stronger. Have to try to break free From the thoughts in my mind. Use the time that I have, I can't say goodbye, Have to make it right. Have to fight, cause I know In the end it's worthwhile, That the pain that I feel slowly fades away. It will be alright. I know, should realize Time is precious, it is worthwhile. Despite how I feel inside, Have to trust it'll be all right. Have to stand up to be stronger. Oh, this night is too long. Have no strength to go on. No more pain, I'm floating away. Through the mist see the face Of an angel, who calls my name

My mind is darkness now My god I am sick I've been used And you knew All the time. Which words and deeds Are truth which are not, Can you give me a clue If things are what they seem?

Winter has come for me, can't carry on. The chains to my life are strong but soon they'll be gone. I'll spread my wings one more time. Is it a dream? All the ones I have loved calling out my name. The sun warms my face. All the days of my life, I see them passing me by. In my heart I know I can let go. In the end I will find some peace inside. New wings are growing tonight. Is it a dream? All the ones I have loved calling out my name. The sun warms my face. All the days of my life, I see them passing me by. As I am soaring I'm one with the wind. I am longing to see you again, it's been so long. We will be together again. Is it a dream? All the ones I have loved calling out my name. The sun warms my face. All the days of my life, I see them passing me by.

The shadows of the night, Were unleashed again Where did his greed begin? A morbid hunger for control, Lies in his cold black eyes It's come to take my light away One by one the lights died A massacre that took all night I had no chance, there was no fight You can kill what was strong before My hearts light died..... With shadows on its tail He stepped through the portal, Locked the door and ate the key With his life he took my way to freedom, And he became the final keeper of the key.

These are the darkest clouds That have surrounded me Now I find my self alone caught in a cage There's no flower I can find in here Not withering not pale to me Everyone with a friendly face Seems to hide some secret inside He told me he loved me While he removed my face He just led me astray He took my virtue, my faith I feel so cold inside Sorrow has frozen my mind My heart is covered With thoughts entangled How could it ever have felt so real? Is there a place more lonely than I feel within? Could I have seen? Could I have known? I just took it as the truth Everyone with a friendly face Seems to hide some secret inside He told me he loved me While he betrayed me in front of my face He just led me astray He took my virtue I feel so cold inside Sorrow has frozen my mind Always there to remind me It keeps me from believing That someone might be there Who frees me and never ever leaves me

Has anything changed, do you still turn it around Did you wash your hands me You made that all too clear Do you just keep on living that lie You refuse to see I'm in agony The cross I bear But you don't seem to care Even Judas knew he had lied I keep wondering why I'm still calling your name through my tears Why have you waited to embrace this, my dear? Cold is your silence, denying what is real I'm still wondering why I'm still calling your name, my dear I'm sorry if you can't stand the naked truth All you see is how you want it to be So you keep on living your lies Release me from this cross after all these years Call my name and help me with this weight Even though it comes far too late I keep wondering why I'm still calling your name through my tears Why have you waited to embrace the truth, my dear? Cold is your silence, denying what is real I'm still wondering why I'm still calling your name. If my heart is too hold, to cold, can friendship open the door? Can we ever find it all and save my heart?