This is a letter to all women who have been beaten by their husband / lover / boyfriend , who ever he may be.......I think I know know why I let it happen, I will never let it happen again. Do you know there are many woman in prison because of there beaters? They could not take anymore so they killed them So now they are the ones once again doing time, just like the beaters who led them to believe they were already in prison. What I plan to do is this, and to say the least I'm not the smartest person in the world BUT I will finally get something done about this problem. I'm going to do a study on women who have been or are currently in an abusive relationship. What I would like from You the WOMAN is to e-mail me back about the abuse and how it started and if it is still going on. I will keep your name anonymous if you would like me to. I want and need your story. I will then send as many as possible to the President if I have to, to finally get something done about this fast growing problem. I will do a study on where the abuse happens the most and why. Why the men do it. And how to stop it. These men belong behind bars the very first time they hit a woman. It is not just physical but mental abuse as well. WOMAN WERE NOT PUT HERE TO BE ABUSED!!!!!!!! I am a kind & caring person, who loves all, and I try to believe in everyone. But it is hard to believe in men anymore. LOOK what they have done to us....to me.....For GOD"S sake I can't even believe that I'm going to do this but I'm going to. Please help me by sending your story, Even if a man out there knows a woman who is being abused, please tell me. Even an ORDER OF PROTECTION don't stop these really bad one's and if you ask me one hit is really bad. I have been with three men in my life that have beaten me I think beyond help. Maybe that is why I'm so angry now, I'm just again working on my third one. and getting a divorce. He as they all do claim that no way did I do that...BULLSHIT !!!!!!!! They will take it to their grave telling people that they are innocent. I'm A VERY ANGRY WHITE WOMAN . I started a journal on my second one because I was in fear for my life, so I wanted someone to know if something happened to me to look into him. I started another one with the current one so if anything happened to look into him. My first !!!!!!! I wished him dead, there is a word for that, for woman who are so abused that all they can think about is him dying. I even would pray to God to please let him get into a car wreck or get pulled over by a police while he was drinking and driving so he could go to jail. He came home very drunk one morning and fell on the kitchen floor, I left him there, and I got the children ready for school as we would step over him. His breathing was very shallow, I knew he was going to die; I was like in some sort of I can't even explain it. My children did not even ask why he was on the floor My Daughter about 3 then my son about 6, just would step over him just like me. I took my time getting them ready for school and I drove them to school. I drove around for about maybe one hour thinking he would be dead when I got home. Wishing and hoping that he was. Praying to God PLEASE let him DIE!!!!!!!!!! I was so afraid to come home, I was so afraid that maybe he was faking to see what I would do. And I would get another beating again. I stopped the car, I then went to a pay phone and called his father to tell him where he was and what was going on with him, I told him I did not know what to do. Still Hoping he would be dead, He told me to call the ambulance right away, then I thought WHY IN THE HELL DID I DO THAT? Why did I call his dad? Now I have to do something, because I was afraid I would go to jail for letting him die. So I called the ambulance and met them at the house, they told me if I had not called them he would have died in about 20 more minutes. I thought what an idiot I was for calling his dad. He was almost gone. Then I realized I can't be that way, I'm not a killer, it did not matter how bad he beat be among other things he had did to me. He lived and I never told him how I was going to let him die that day. ..
That is only one story of many more that I have been through, my second husband. Well I was going to a therapist BECAUSE get this, he said I was crazy, I believed him so I went. After about a few months I started to open up to him. My therapist, and instead of him analyzing me he was now analyzing him. He then told me one day at therapy that in forty years of being a therapist he has only known one woman that he knew for sure that her husband would kill her someday soon, He then said You are the second one. I was very shocked and scared, I asked him what happened to the other woman.......HE KILLED HER......I wanted to run so far away and so fast that I thought that maybe I could stop all this crazy stuff, I was scared to go home. MY GOD again.......Beatings after beatings, my neck was all twisted my head turned to the left and almost laid on my left shoulder. He would choke me all the time and sprained my neck. It took years to heal. I mean years.. NOW again my neck is sprained. And because I can't say anything yet because of the divorce I can say why or who. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH>>>>>>>>> I told you a little about me and why I'm doing this. I want to put a STOP to this once and for all. And I guess I'm going to be the one to do it. Starting now I will not keep my mouth shut.....These guys have to be incarcerated the very first offence, Not let another woman get abused by the same guy, Tell everyone you know what he has or is doing to you. Get away FAST, DON"T let your children see what is going on, The last one and the first one even abused my children the last was my granddaughter. My daughter even told me as long as I was living with him she would not let the children come over unless she was here with them or he was not at home. WHAT a wake up call. The first lasted about 8 years the second about 14 the last 2 1/2. NO MORE FOR ME I"M DONE AND VERY ANGRY. Now it's my turn, and could be yours. Please send me your story. I will leave my e-mail address, and please pass this on to all the people you know, so everyone will here about this dangerous crime. After my last and final divorce is over I will tell my name. Please help me to help you; I will not stop until I am heard. And something is done once and for all. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. I'M SOMEONE WHO CARES AND HAVE BEEN THERE. I ONLY WANT TO HELP....... Again pass this to all you know. There may even be someone you don't know about that this could be happening to..........bless you all, Thank-you,
P.S. To all the guys who are good and there is good ones out there, I'm not trying to upset you. I'm sure you agree that no woman should be beaten. I'M NOT AT ALL PUTTING DOWN MEN, I WOULD LOVE TO MEET A REALLY NICE GUY, WHO WILL LOVE ME FOR ME. NOT A PUNCHING BAG. AND I KNOW THERE IS MORE GOOD GUYS THAN BAD....THANK YOU FOR THAT.
I sent this out almost 2 years agao on my e-mail, I did get lots of replies. Most from men...The good ones. Thank you for reading this. Again I'm not out to hurt anyone...Blessed Be.......Deborah
