Ok, ok...so I understand my life can't be perfect! But why the hell must I live such a hard life?! Seems like every time things are going well, I suddenly trip and mess up, and end up back where I was before...being a depressed girl with no reason to live! I get so many compliments, hearing how beautiful and special I am...but I don't feel it...I don't see it! All I see is a sad, lonely, ugly, fat-ass girl with no purpose in life! I mean, what's so special about me?! What the hell do others see in me that I don't?! I really don't see anything special about me. After all the abuse, bullying, and teasing in my life, I really can't see myself as someone special...it keeps making me feel like maybe they're right, that maybe I'm not worth it! And I just can't get those thoughts outta my head! Why must I have to go through this?! Geez, I hate my life!