Geneva's blog: "one day at a time"

Just sitting here on a sunday and wondering why life is so messed up? i am kind of seeing someone, but we were talking and he is not looking for anyone permanent, he is on his own for the first time in his life, he's been married 4-5 times can't remember for sure, he told me but i guess it didn't sink in. Anyway, i guess we are seeing where all this goes and enjoying the time we have together. 

I have been divorced for over 15 years now and no one on the horizon as a bf or whatever....i guess i will be alone for the rest of my life except for my cats, my daughter is in grad school and doing well. I guess i just get down about being alone at times. I was seeing someone for 13 years, he friend zoned me and said he had only loved me as a friend.....wow, and he wonders why i ask for the truth.....don't lie to me that pisses me off in so many ways. he and i still tallk if you can call it that, i guess i am just tired of being the fwb, and not having someone that is here for me all of me not just what i can offer to them. i am a person a bbbw but still a person. rant over for now