Chaos Kitten's blog: "Why Did You Leave Me?"

How have I come to this How did I slip and fall How did I throw half a lifetime away Without any thought at all This should've been my time It's over, it never began Facing a world, for once, not on my side I simply turned and ran I try to blame it on fortune Some kind of twist in my fate But I know the truth and it haunts me I learned it a little too late I know the truth and it mocks me I know the truth and it shocks me I learned it a little too late People have faith in me I think I once did too I promise whoever has a hold on out lives I'll see the bad times through This should have been my time It's over, it never began Facing a world, for once, not on my side I simply turned and ran I try to blame it on fortune Some kind of shift in the stars But I know the truth and it haunts me It's flown just a little too far I know the truth and it mocks me I know the truth and it shocks me It's flown just a little too far I try to blame it on fortune Some kind of twist in my fate But I know the truth and it haunts me I learned it a little too late

My mind fills up with dark thoughts, thoughts of this world, thoughts of my pathetic life. I feel so alone you say you love me, then why do you leave me here out in the cold, in the dark to wait for you, yet you never come. I find you in a place were better people stay, I find you in a place that is full of beautiful people, a place were you belong. Don't stay here with me, you are just wasting your life if you stay with me, I will never amount to anything. I'm just going to drag you down. Please, please don't leave me. I know that you would be better off without m, all I want is for you to be happy. But I just can't live without you...

If you could tell me what's wrong with me I'd try to me more just... If you could tell me what's wrong with you I'd try to make it better... If you could tell me why we all feel this way I'd try to find a cure... If you could tell me Who I am Who you are Who we are I's try to find us somewhere... If you could tell me... But you can't tell me... ...becasue... You're gone... Why did you leave me?