he feels the cold of the steel
wanting to end it all for wounds that wont heal
he pulls the trigger, the hammer falls
but for this young man death does not call
could it be a bad charge on the bullet
everything looks good, puts it back in and pulls it
nothing, he returns the gun to his friend
it looks like the tonight the gun wont be his end
tired now, tomorrow is another day
tomorrow brings another way
this time suffucation is the case
somehow he can breathe clearly with the a plastic bag tied over his face
she dosent love me, she dont even care
he says with a rope around her neck as he stepped from the chair
he begins to drop
but to his dismay his neck did not pop
he looked around to see who was there
it was his cousin wayne holding him with a blank stare
she hates me man as he starts to cry
fuck her man thats no reason to die
he dont want to live without her in his life
he'll wait till his cousin leave, tonight its his knife
once again he'll fell the steel
he cuts himself 12 time but his skin wont yield
six on his neck, six on his wrist
no scars, no blood and now he's pissed
next pioson was his chioce
please dont daddy said a little voice
looking here or there, up and down
still no one there no sign of the voice was found
through the lips and pass the nose
in to the stomache here we go
this pioson is strong, it should kill him quick
sorry about his luck, it just made him sick
he's running out of options and not much left to do
a bottle of aleive and a 40 or two
this should work at least it does on T.V.
but no luck not even after the sixth forty
the gun didnt work, not pioson, nor rope or bag
not pills, not the knife what a drag
not much left but slim pickings
what happens next might be sicking
as the water fills the tub
he sits, just as he puts the radio in it burns the plug
once again his attempt failed
nothing to say but what the hell
feeling feed up and ready to cry
fuck this he said i'll give it one more try
that night in his dream he saw his fate
to save her from him alone he must wait
you protect her in her dreams so she can be safe
so day after day she may wake
stupid dream no longer would he try
i still here him at night "why can't i just die"
