StormRider's blog: "Where's my parachute?""

Sometimes as friends come in and out of our lives, it is an unsettling event. We as humans are so quick to take this as a rejection, fearing that it was something we did or did not do. Why our focus is so much on ourselves that it doesn't allow us to realize that it may have nothing to do with me, and everything to do with what is necessary for our friends personal development. Letting go is hard for us to do. Even the healthiest people want to keep the things that are familiar, the fear of the unknown is a scary thing. We go through our lives surrounding ourselves with the known quantity. We know what it is and what to do in situations, it is familiar and comfortable. The same thing seems to hold true in friendships that aren't healthy but they are known to us. It seems easier to keep the relationship than risk loosing the contact. Once again, when you face the fear and walk through what is necessary, once you pass to the other side, it looses it's fear. When friend's journey takes them away from the friendship, it is best to wish them well and hope that their journey takes them to what comes next for them. By allowing this to happen without fear of loss to yourself, it actually allows you to keep the door open to the possible reentry into your life at a later date.

At the best of times, life is like a raging river, full of twists and turns. Each fork that we take, leads us down another stream. Some dry up, leading nowhere. Others can take you to the edge of sanity. Here lately I quit using the oar, lol. But after drifting for what seemed to be a long time, I have picked up the oar and started steering my craft once again. I don't want to go into the white water just now, think i'll take it easy and stay in the still waters. I guess I forgot my way for a while. But wasted time gets me nowhere. So it,s back to the journey of life, just as soon as I find that parachute! lol

This is my first exposure to an online community, it has been quite an experience. I was overwhelmed at first, learning overload. I am relatively new to computer world, so I have been still learning the basics. But with each step I take and each new lesson learned, it fills me with awe. A few months ago, I was at the library and the computers were down, a sign said it would be a couple of hours before they went back online.I decided to use the time to search for something in a book. When I approached the librarian and asked him where I could find the desired material, he got a confused look on his face. I asked him what the problem was. He told me he was at a loss as to how to find the reference materials I wanted without the computer to tell him where it would be found. I thought to myself, how dependant we have become on computers in such a relatively short period of time. I had waited so long to start my education in the cyber world, until it was beginning to concern me. I was afraid to stay uneducated in this area for fear that I would become as a person unable to read or write.

There I was 10,000 feet in the air, not a para chute in sight. So I said to myself....Better start flappin.....