Acrisia's blog: "When will it be my turn?"

When is it my turn

To feel the tears burn?

When can I cry

And express the need to die?

Why must I be strong

And pretend that I belong?

When can I be weak

And receive the comfort I seek?

I get exhausted from the pretense

The pain is just so intense.

I hide from all of my fears

And continue to hide my tears.

Why is it so wrong to show emotion

When I feel I could cry enough to fill an ocean?

Why can’t I be just another person

Instead of letting the pain worsen?

Shouldn’t friendship be a two way street

Where sometimes what you want takes a backseat?

I wish just one day you would listen

And see the tears in my eyes glisten.

How many times have we sat and talked

Or gone out together just to walk?

How many times have I listened to your sorrows

And helped you look forward to a better tomorrow?

Is it so wrong that some days I want to flee

Since it seems that just one day can’t be about me?

Is it wrong that I’m holding on to the past

When you thought I should get over it so fast?

Some days I wonder if life would be better alone

Since our friendship soon you will disown

If I ever bring up my pain, you become so shallow

Or perhaps the truth is you’re just to callow

Is the friendship I am lusting for just a dream?

A life filed with roses and peaches and cream?

What I’m looking for seems to be a fairy tale

Perhaps it is time to give up and just bail.