Purple Pixie's blog: "Whateverness"

well for those who didn't know i was pregnant for about 14 weeks... well i just had a majorly painful miscarriage today... i didn't want it to happen but i guess these things happen... it hurts more in my heart then it did in my tummy... me and bleu wanted this to happen so bad... i think i'll be cryin for the next several days... i wish this didn't happen... i guess we'll try again later... it hurts so bad... it was my first pregnancy and this had to happen... i feel so horrible that i lost mine and bleu's first baby... i'm so sry my lost little one... plz forgive me

i'm havin serious issues w/ the guy i love. i dont ever wanna hurt him but he's pushin me in that direction. i've tried tellin him what's wrong so we can work on fixin it but he's makin no effort at all to do so. i cry and hurt b/c he wont listen, b/c he wont help. i love him, but he loves fubar more. he just cant see it. i see it clearly and it hurts me so much. all i want from a guy is to be loved and treated as his #1. right now i feel like his #2. baby if u read this i dont want to hurt u but if this isnt fixed i'm gonna have to b/c i'm tired of hurting so damn much. i love u and i always will. i've treated u the best i can and more while u dont do the same. plz if u read this hunny either fix it (and that doesnt include deletein ur account i would never ask that) or we'll both be hurting for a long time. i'm sry it sounds so cruel but it has to be said. i love u always!

these fuckin retards need to fuckin grow up. i dont go bashin other ppls mumms. if i can i give helpful advice. and i'm more mature then ppl give me credit for. just b/c i'm young dont mean shit. i've been thru worse shit then ppl could imagine seein a kid go thru. so dont me a fuckin baby b/c i dont like tha fact that yall r too immature on these fuckin mumms. every mumm i've ever posted has been bashed and it's damn ridiculous. find somethin better to do like rate ppl pix or actually give advice on mumms for once instead of bashin ppl and makin either feel low or pissed off. at least i have some kind of sense in my head. yall act like yall have no fuckin heart. just die be done w/ it if thats the case. yall r fuckin retards for all the bs u put down in those comments for mumms. i'm not worried about growin up cuz i pretty much have. yall r the ones who need to grow up and get a fuckin life. i'm tired of ppl who think it's funny to put down other ppl (or at least try to neway). so neways grow the fuck up. or at least say somethin nice when u comment mumms. geez it's more immature then elementary school kidz. p.s. i know how to fuckin spell. usin acronyms and shit is a lot easier on typing. so lay off the spellin. if u cant read it oh well... i dont care!!!

wut a messed i life i live. found out that my ex was cheating on me the entire time we were together. i dont know y i end up w/ these types of guys. seriously messed up. i wish i could just find one guy to be w/ just me. i feel so unwanted or something. hell, wuts really messed up is that i still wanna be w/ another ex of mine. he treated me kindly and only really done one bad thing to me, but i ended up fuckin that relationship up. yup i have one messed up life. well, actually, it's more of a messed up love life lol. neways, l8r.

i am so glad to be with u. u make me feel like a person again. i havent felt like this in almost a yr. ur so good to me. i hope this never ends. to be honest im startin to get a little scared. everytime i get attached to a guy it never turns out pretty, but i'm willin to see this thru as far as it will go. i luv u baby!!!

Well, I am officially a college student and it sucks!!! But if I'm ever to get a good job, it's wut i gotta do. I've made some new friends here. They seem kinda kool. One guy is a total and complete ASSHOLE!!! He kinda weirds me out too. Ummm... right now I'm taking courses in criminal justice. It's kinda boring, except for Investigative Principles. That class keeps me active so I don't fall asleep in class lol. English 111 has got to be by far my most boring class, but it's required. (I guess I'm sayin that cuz I really hate English.) Well, anyways, that's about all I have on college life for now. L8R.

i'm wishin for someone to love. i also wish i had a "family" to help defend myself when i cant do it myself. i guess i wish there were ppl out there who might care. dont really have a lot of those outside my family family. well, later ppl. aint got anything else to say lol.

kinda bored so im gonna sit here and type up some stupid shit and maybe even some not stupid shit. well, im excited that i just graduated high school. im on vaca in florida. i now have a new pet called a sugar glider. it's a boy and his name is midnight. he's very hyper at nite. ummm... i now have black hair and i've gotta add some new pix lol. well, now i'm blank on stuff to say. so later ppl.

Can someone plz help me end my misery? I just wanna fuckin die. I've had nothing to live for ever since the one guy (outside my family) that really, truly loved left me alone and miserable w/out even a reason why. I've tried to live, but as each day goes by, I grow even more depressed. And the bad luck just keeps on comin. I feel I have no one I can count on. Hell, my own sister, who's been one of my closest friends, is even going behind my back. And if I can't count on her, then who can I count on. Sure as hell ain't me, for the simple reason that I'm so fucked up. My life has gone upside down, and the only way I see out is thru Death's door.