I've been pondering this again... Shit has been crap, lately... Fuck the goat in my ass...
I want some recognition for the fact that I'm mostly harmless. I want to stop being the flower on the wall. I want some people around to notice. I want to stop taking the fall. I want your undivided attention. I want my come-uppance due. I want to divert all your dissent and I want the one and only you.
enough of that...
i want someone to take me aside and put my head in their lap and stroke those spots above and behind my ear and tell me that i'm actually not a piece of shit and that i really am a likable and liked person and that i shouldn't worry about what others say no matter how it hurts and that i really should just come be with them until things blow over and i should focus my all on what i really want because i deserve it and goddammit SOMEBODY MAKE ME FUCKING BELIEVE ALL THIS PATSY BULLSHIT COMING OUT OF MY FUCKING MOUTH BECAUSE THE LAST FUCKING THOUGHT I'LL HAVE TONIGHT IS HOW I CAN'T FIND MY WAY OUT!!!!