Wow. I didn't know I made that message of "not interested in meeting people"... that was 5 months ago. Wow.

All because of some stupid bitch here. Anywho... things are different now.



So about me. Well, I've lived in Virginia Beach for 21 years now. I've been in this shithole of a city for far too long and need to get out soon.



I don't like saying so much about myself, but this is an about me section. So I'll keep the rest short. I don't particularly like myself so much. But I don't like saying that in person. I'm actually quite a pessimistic person. How can I be optimistic when I know every situation I'm in fucks me over? I can't even remember the last time in the past 12 months something went 100% my way or in my favor. Not even a little bit. (Other than a job...)



It's one thing to live optimistic, blinded by how horrible this world is. It's another to live pessimistic, and live life for real. As much as we want this world to be perfect, it never will be. Many people in this world are crooked and only out to look for themselves, not caring who they hurt in the process. I for one, still to this day can not live like that. To think every action I make effects me personally in my everyday life makes my quote to live by all that more meaningful.



"Do Unto Others."



This is not a religious thing at all. Infact, it's just three words that mean a lot. And it's simple. If you want people to treat you with respect, you will (hopefully) get it back. Not that I see it returned to me... But I still, for some twisted reason, have hope in humanity that there is one person out there that doesn't have such a black heart. To be cheated on, used, or just fucked with in every time I attempted to be with someone, I should be a horrible person myself who is only saught for revenge on everyone. But it's not like that. For me, I feel I am a good person (and I do not compliment myself at all) and some times, too good for my own damn good. Because I let it happen. I have a hard time trusting people, but once I do, I trust too much. I become too open. I give a lot.



But what do I see from it? Well, apparently, rants in my goddamned "About Me" section. So I'll end this here. I hope that I said something that affected you in this already corrupt world. Because I do believe there are good people out there. But too many of them are two faced for it to be true.