Chrissy in CT's blog: "tornado tears...."

First let me thank Emily and the rest of you wonderful people for trying your hardest to pull me out of an emotional sewer today...I love you so much for all you do and all your words. I just wanted to briefly address the reason behind putting up such a picture as that. And to explain why "tornado tears". 99.9% of the time I have the world's most positive outlook, I can take on the whole world and fight my way through anything. Yet there are times, that shovelling shit against the tide just takes it toll and I am ready to throw in the towel and say FUCK IT! Today is one of those days.... After two surgeries in the past four months and countless weeks off work....Im kind of hurting in many ways. I guess I wanted you to see that there is more than one side to me. I dont always smile....well most of the time anyhow...lol...but there are days that I'm problemsolving constantly and im so tired of it. Single parents everywhere have such a time of it. Coupled with being off work being sick and so much other stuff it doesn't help either. Then the impending holidays dont help either. Kyle and I generally have our Christmas at tax time when mom is a little more flush....lol. Thank god he is an understanding wonderful boy who is gonna be an even more wonderful man. I like to think i take some credit for that too. ...lol Things will get better or not...thats life...but it i sure nice to have you guys to talk to, cry to, hold close to my heart like the world's biggest family..... Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my friends..... The smile is back! Always your tornado! Chrissy