I never thought I would ever feel this way.
Tonight I am ready to go to bed I was tired but I have been talking with a friend. and my home phone rings.
I needed to pick it up I knew immediately it was bad news Tuesday night after 11:45
Well it seems my little sister patricia. she was 10 years younger than I was fighting with her husband. took one of his firearms and ended her life. 28 years old fucked up marraige but WHY PATTY WHY Why end it I would of come and got you. Now I have to explain to my sons what happened they wont have their aunt at any weddings births graduations NOTHING I cant stop thinking of it. We may have had differences in the past but you are my sister. Unconditional love. You were the baby. You were finally putting your head on straight then this. At a time to be happy all we have is sadness. I cant believe you are gone little sister. I will be gone from the net for a long time. I need time to think and clear my head. I dont want to be bothered with little things at this time. I miss my baby sister and the tears dont stop. I am in shock.
