i lost a grandfather 2 yrs ago on NYE with cancer n now i have a grandmother who is not going to make it another month!! neither one of them smoked and yea they use to drink a lil, but nothing horrible. i on the other hand, smoke n drink. i am not sayin my day wont come, but why do they have to be taken by summin tht never should have affected them? i kno there isnt a "real answer" to tht, i am just venting. i feel i should trade places with my grandmother, let her live some more. i kno others will say, but she has lived a good life, THTS MY POINT!! WHY TAKE IT AWAY NOW? any way i am going to stop b4 i write a novel.