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Well there is this girl that i was with for a long time. WE had a lot of good times but we had a falling out. WE broke up and became friends though. My problem is that I love her so much and she knows it. She loves me too though so that is good. Everytime i talk to her my heart feels like it is beating 1000000 times a second. But then there are times where my feels like it is being ripped out through my chest by something that is invisible to me. Right now we are in a place that is very good to me. I like that very much. She still means the world to me and i hope she knows that. Some people might not like that but they are going to have to deal with it. Sorry to them but hey, I am in love. I hope that they understand that and just want me to be happy with my descisions. But hey, if that girls reads this know that I love u very much and i miss u very much. And to those who might not approve please just say to urselves that he is trying to be happy the way he wants to. I love u all very much.
Back in the day I was a raver...Not just some kid who went to some raves and did a little partying, but a candy raver of sorts. I would dress up and get all decked out to the fullest. Hair in braids, different color hair, usually red though. Candy all up and down my arms(candy are the bracelets and/or necklaces) With a binky in my mouth rolling my balls off.(a binky is a pasafire-cant spell that word) I would go to these things for 2-3 days and not stop at all. These were some of my favorite days I ever had. God sometimes i would even write shit down cause i was so fucked up i would want to remember it all through word and rhyme. Those were my days as a raver...Now i am still the same but more matured and a little moved on from there. but when i hear those beats and feel that thing in the back of my head calling to me i cant help but revert into whut i was then...A person of the cloth as it were, a person who needed to have that feeling of unity with my fellow person around me, a RAVER and nothing else.
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