Ok so i have this little problem. I was at my buddy Zacks dads house and then met this girl. Not saying who it was. Then, that day we got drunk with them, and i ended up making out with her all night till we hadda go. Then, we never stopped liking each other 4 the next like...2 months. Then i asked her out. She took 3 days to answer it ignoring everything i mentioned about it and cut herself out of depression. I dint want a cutter so i was like "fuck that". Then 2 weeks later i figured, well, maybe i'll give her a 2nd chance. So i did. I asked her out, and she said no cause everyone told her i cheat on my gf's with kylie. ewwww hell no. aint true. so then, about 2 months, 3 months later, she asks out my buddy. he says yes. He ends up not being that good of a bf 2 her and she might dump him. Meanwhile, i still like her. I asked her if i had a chance still, and she said she dint know. She then ended up cheating on him on friday with this dude named zeb (having sex with him) and i end up finding out it's that i love her not like...and i asked her again today if she liked me in that way and she said she dint know. so i said how the fuck can you not know? its a yes or no answer. she said no. and i said i dint think so. so she says sorry babe. and i said. yeah w/e. don't call me babe anymore...it gives me false hope. she later goes on telling me that i'm being a dick. and i told her well i'm sorry. you tricked me and i don't know how i'm supposed to act. and she said how did i trick you. so i said you tricked me into believing that i still had a chance. and she stopped talking...so yeah...i want to put a fucking bullet in my brain cause now they aren't going out, but she doesn't like me and i don't want to be with a cheater.
You see, the kind of girl I am trying to find is fun loving, drugfree, happy, beautiful hearted, semi-romantic,one who loves to cuddle, won't lead me on, looking for a fightless companion, happy, not a druggy, not to bad into smoking, will not dump me for anyone else, not into cheating, no lying, no betrayal, no leaving for another, not emo, kind hearted, just someone i can love and love back pretty much...oh and they have to be good looking at least a little to me...isn't a fake person, not only about sex (it's just a bonus, not that important to me),and lastly, not preganent.
But around my area, the females i'm going after are nothing like my wishfull relationship. So in the meantime, i am still looking for "her" as to speak.
-Arsonist Psycho Bryan
