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The demons with-in want to keep me in that deep dark hole in my soul. I fight every day to stay alive. I struggle to stay happy and smile. Every time I think I am close to healing and filling the deep dark hole in my soul, those demons with-in pull me back in. I can’t win. I push them away and they just keep coming back for me again, and again. I cry out, lord help me! There’s no answer. He can’t hear me over the screams of pain. The demons with-in cause scars and pain to my soul. I cry out Lord Help me, somebody help me, anybody, please. The demons with-in pull me deeper into the hole of my soul. They will never release me. They won’t let me be happy. The pain, I just want to die, and be done with all the pain. Then two faint voices cry out, over all the screams of pain. They sound as if they are crying and saying. Daddy please don’t give up; keep fighting the demons with-in for us. We love you very much. So I keep battling the demons with-in. It’s an every day battle to stay alive.
I love living Life each Day that is magical and happy ,with postive energy ,maybe I am not perfect maybe I am perfect ,I love Who I am ,and for that ,through my eyes makes me very magical .
I spent my entire Life Trying figure out Who I am .... When it's been right there in front of me all this Time . I am not a Spirit that gets left behind ,not a spirit that sheds tears ,where they do not belong ,I am not spirit that ,takes this Life alone ,as The World is my family ! There are so many in this world that say they really know me ,When in fact ,if that was True ,They understand more than they do . Secrets has always been in shadows hiding in world that surrounds me . Always a test out there waiting for "YOU" to fail that test~~ I am worlth Fighting for ,not losing ,I am fresh breath air filled with Spring ,Fall,Winter,Summer all mixed up into Me ...




Hello,
Welcome to my page. This Page is a personal journey with an open invitation. It's a journey of discovery in learning more about my world around me and myself through breaking down the individual walls we are prone to develop in this individual society we live within. Committing to doing not so random **RaK** (Random Acts Of Kindness) each day.
I invite you to share in what I learn, and if you dare, to join me and be a reader, of this profile.
I wish to say though many things in its contents is borrowed from here and there ,this is a real close facsimile of the real me so if you want to know the real me please read... And also be sure to read my blogs which will have many more intresting things about me...


Alrighty.. so, as this is my profile, I shall tell you some things about myself, instead of posting numerous pointless internet quiz results, glittery shit, gifs and other stupid
things that take your internet 4 hours to load the page, I will save all that stuff for my blogs ,stashes and comments so keep an eye out hell you may learn something new about me lol . Anything you read below I will gladly tell you more about if you ask nicely..


hmmm lets see where to begian ,
First of all I may seem that I am gay or homeaphobic well I am nither of these I am just a weird guy in an even stranger world trying not to get caught talking to myself(though I do it quite often).Other than that I am an easy going, laid back, and free spirited guy,who is pretty normal...

I am, a man of many mysteries, and I like it like that,I have many interests,and many hobbies,probably too many to mention here,what I will say is that right now I am in a very dark and trying time right now and i need friends do I ask will you be my friend....


I do not follow any specific religion or belief - As I believe that as soon as you start to follow a religion or particular path, you are limiting yourself...Religion is just another word for brainwashing, and any religion or following that tells you to better yourself or meditate until you're practically comatose just to find or become a "higher being" or any such B.S is pointless, how in hell are you supposed to do something like that if you've only
experienced that one view of life?

Wanna get to know me? Show me some respect. DONT start a conversation with me with hey dude or hey bro - I WON'T RESPOND!! If it goes good, i'll let you know when you can get personal. I'm not the sort of person you want to piss off! I WILL NOT ADD, RATE or FAN ANYONE who disrespects me or begs for ratings. I'm as REAL as real gets, luv me or hate me - i could fucking care less!I don't have anything to prove to anyone I don't have to act like I'm happy or unhappy withmyself to try to fit in somewhere. I go through the same shit or great days just like everyone else.. although I am bipolar, so my bad days probably outdo yours.. unless you are too... lol..

I respect all religions and would never try to force my views on anyone and in return i expect the same. My Private folder is just that -PRIVATE! Don't ask to view!! Those who have the privilege of viewing, earned that right. If i decide to allow you to view, i'll be the one to let you know. NO ONE OWNS ME –I belong to NO ONE - not online, not in real life. I am in charge of my own life! I am NOT here looking for a F-Buddy, girlfriend or lover but if that happens hey hey hey thats a pluse but my main goal here is to meet new and exciting friends, and have fun....

I do allow aspects of Druidry/Paganism and a few other magickal paths into my life, but I do what I want, when I want to...whatever feels right..I use crystals and herbs every day though and I give kick ass massages :p

I really don,t have time to play games and I rally aint in to all that drama or confusion im a person that has past the point of no return the final thrash hold,the bridge is crossed, so I stand and watch it burn,I have passed the point of no return..I think of all the things, I,ve seen and done and I don't think about the things that might have been or could have been, just what it is now...I have taken control of my life no one owns me in reality or on the net,its all me,I share my skills and knowledge with others,I have taken back the night,no longer dreaming wishful thoughts,or having those devilish drams of hell,for now I control my subconcious thoughts....Ive turned up my music and listen to the beat of life,and listen before I react to anger and to meditate on conflicts seeking to understand that which irritates and confuses me...And I have learn to focus and listen to others,knowing that no one is silent,though many are not heard thank to selective hearing disfunction that so many of us have in todays society....But most of all I have learn to make my full self mind, body, soul, and spirit to work toward positive changes and reforms...

I am old, and I am wise, and I did not gain my years or my wisdom the easy way, the safe way, by watching others and not doing what they did wrong. I have my own scars, and earned every single one of them. If you feel you must cross me, then that is your choice. I won't swear eternal revenge, more than likely as not, I'll just take the hit and keep moving on, because I guarantee you that no matter what you do, I've alreayd been through worse, and it doesn't really bother me. If you feel you must do me a good turn, then that, also, is your choice. I can't promise that I'll spend the rest of my life showing gratitude or eternal love, especially if you do this good deed unasked. What I will say to both of these, is that I am patient, and I am cunning, and I can wait. So if you do me good, or if you do me evil, then one day, when I have the chance, which I may make for myself, or I may take when I see it, I will return the favor in as many spades as I can afford to at that moment.


I am a little Wild and A Little Laid back and a Whole lotta Crazy ,love to live on that Edge of Life ,hate talking about it ,love living Life with actions ,
I was raised in South alabama ,stuck in Kansas,
Love nature ,and simple things in Life .
Monster Truck Gals ,with a cold one in her hand.
Wanna know anything else ,shit ~~ ask me don't be Shy ~~ I sure am not ~~
Music is Life!!!!! Don't you get it ,is the Sounds of Nature that surrounds me every day and through out the Night oh my God!! stop... and listen at Night time ,and hear the wonderful sounds around you not the horns honking or cars passing you by but the sounds that are in front of you and magick to your ears ,that is a music I will always live and flow through my very spirit ...music is all around each of us ...just Listen and you will hear too......no matter where you live ...

" I will leave you with the mystery of me in your mind.getting to know me ,could be a benefit...or worst case scenario...I'll be just another person you get to know in life so take a chance..."either way life will go on with or with out you...

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People come into your life for a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season . LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

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