ok,
i don't get it
what is the true meaning of friendship ?
this will evoke different emotions and answers amongst many of you
and to be honest,
i dont really want or expect any answers from any of you
this is just somethng that i need to vent...
to me,
friendship has always been quite black and white
there were people that you got along with, shared a mutual respect with, had a shared or common interest in something together etc, etc, etc
then there were those special few (or more than a few if you are lucky)
these are the friends who know you inside out, upside down and can tell you too your face you're being a fucking idiot !
these are the friends that you share your innermost thoughts and life experiences with
these are the people that you will do anything for
and they will do anything for you
they don't judge you
they simply accept you for all that you are
as you do them.......
whatever sort of friends you have, i'm sure you will interpret their friendship in your own way
heres my 'story'
to quote
"well, i wont be able to speak to you for the next x days as xxxx is coming down"
what the buggery bollocks is that ?!!
since when has going out and getting laid and having fun ever stopped any one of us from picking their fucking phone up ?????
a simple text message would have been nice
sadly, that was obviously beyond my 'friend'
she managed to answer my text
just couldn't even be arsed to send one of her own
and now the icing on the fucking gateau
i am the one that has changed
i am the one that is in the wrong
my 'friend' can't understand why i havent called or texted her since
but i just feel so deflated by the whole thing
we have told each other lots of personal stuff
to me, this went beyond the bounds of casual acquaintance
i thought we had a connection
we laughed at each other
we cheered each other up
we took the piss out of each other
we enjoyed talking to each other
we shared relationship and personal issues
and then ..............
fuck all
i feel that everything she has ever told me has been a lie
i don't get it
and i don't know whether i feel more pissed off or more let down / dissappointed
but i know one thing
i have never ever and never fucking ever will, formed a friendship with someone of either sex (admittedly, i have more friends that are female) and then cast them aside because i had a new love interest
and i mean that in the most literal of senses
there's somebody else on here that now doesn't speak to me
i dont know why
i've asked
