YourMidnightSecret's blog: ".The End of Me."

put a gun to my head. feed me bullets for breakfast. it will be the sweetest meal. that i have ever tasted. no regrets. no worries. it's hard to know someone cares. when no one speaks. when you are alone. how can you know someone. unless you are always with them? doesn't make sense. put a gun to my head. feed me bullets for lunch. tell the other kids. this is one thing i wont share. i have shared everything else. but this one thing is for me. this is something they. can not take away from me. this is not like everything else. put a gun to my head. feed me bullets for dinner. tell my family to say grace. i will be not be down for dinner. too many times. i have let them down. but this time. i will not be down for dinner. put a gun to my head. feed me bullets for dessert. it is the sweetest thing. that has ever touched these lips. you were the second thing. but not by far. so will you please. tell them to stop walking on me. even after they feed me. they are only making me thicker. for their own meals. +YourMidnightSecret+

Take a breath and close your eyes, Imagine the truth behind those lies. They all tell you the same things, You can never grow your wings. Here in the darkness you wait, Feeling nothing but your hate. Soon they will all see, What they thought could never be. Slowly in the blackest of nights, You will soar the greatest heights. Through the trees and the sky, They will see how they made you cry. Soaring high above the rest, You thought you were blessed. As night rips away the light, You try to take flight. This hell you have fallen to, Evil within only grew. With the Demon inside of you, You knew it had to be true. The flames cover your body, And your soul is embodied. With no bliss, Or any good-night kiss. +YourMidnightSecret+

With the guilt and the pain intermixed within the heart always seeking the truth always finding confusion. With the back pushed agianst the wall no where to turn no where to run broken shards of the heart fall shattering all hope. destory it destory hate destroy love destory confusion destory hope nothing is left. see the world through a mirror clocks ticking away the time follow the white rabbit follow the white rabbit follow the white rabbit. say something say anything time is ticking heart is beating lungs are collapsing better hurry. out of time stop dead no more worrying no more confusion or hope or faith. follow the white rabbit see the way through the rabbit hole to the other side where nothing is the same. +YourMidnightSecret+

Just do it. Don't pretend. You say, "Hi! Let's be friends!" When really you are saying, "Let me kill you slowly." Take a razor blade. Slide it roughly against my wrist. Take a candle. Burn my house down with me in it. Take a gun. Put it in my mouth and pull the trigger. Take a bottle of pills. Make me swallow all of them at once. Take a container of water. Drown me in it without letting me grasp a breath. Take a car. Hit me with it until I go limp. Take a knife. Stab me through my weak heart. Take an axe. Dismember me until you don't know who I am. Take a vow. Tell them that I am a witch so they can hang me until my lungs collapse. Take a few words. I will die of a broken heart. Take a mirror. Take two sharp pieces of the glass and shove them in my eyes, hard and deep. Take a rope. Hang my head high. Just like you have wanted to since the day you met me. Why must you kill me? Because I was never good enough for you. How could I not remember? You will never let me forget. +YourMidnightSecret+