Ok so this is my first Fubar blog. I haven't blogged in a while on myspace. Probably because there is too much shit goin on with that community now its not funny. Have to worry about my page getting hacked or phished...Its bullshit. So I don't use that site very much anymore, I check it still everyday though. Anyway, a little about me for those of you that don't know me well, or at all...
I'm a 27 yr old Happily involved woman, mother of one very gorgeous baby girl, born June 25th of this year. She is my world. And while my finace and I have our problems, we are for the most part happy, so I'm not looking for sex, cyber, extra relationships(I have enough to handle in the one I'm in)I'm not lookin to ruin what I have. I don't trust easily, those of you who do have my trust you know that it didn't come easily. I'm a very guarded person, I've been hurt and betrayed tremendously by friends and lovers and family alike. I've done my share of hurting as well. A lot of people think I'm a bitch, or a snob because I don't conform to what other people think that I should be...To those people, I say....FUCK YOU!!! I am who I am, if you don't like it, kiss my ass. I am one who is very proud of who she is, and it took a long difficult road to get to where I am, and I fight daily to remember what it was like to get here, to keep my self esteem, my confidence. I don't want my daughter to grow up with the lack of both that I had as a child and teenager. Yes I was fat, oh well, but children are cruel, and I was hurt very many times because people didn't understand that I have an illness, which caused the weight, the unwanted hormone dificencies(sp), the difficulities getting pregnant, the mood swings, and ultimately diabetes. I will be diabetic for the rest of my life, because of something called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I don't use any of this as an excuse for the way that I am, but the reasons why I am the way that I am. It was a miracle that I got pregnant, and I thank the Goddess every day, every time I look into my daughters steel gray eyes...Everytime I hear her giggle, or see her smile. She is my life force, the reason I get up every morning.
In closing, I am who I am, if you don't like it, I honestly don't care. Like me for who I am, for my incessant ramblings, that sometimes make no sence, it just comes out as it goes thru my head.(Like right now) For the love and affection, compassion and honesty that I have and can give. I welcome comments and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism..Gracious I'm havin a hard time spellin this morning...LMAO!!
To my friends and family, I love you all and thank you all for standing by me thru everyting, to my enemies, kiss my ass...to everyone else...fuck you if you don't like it...LMAO!!!!
Jade
