sometimes i wonder what has happened to all of the men i have loved. like genuinely been willing to die for. it isn't a long list not by any means. i have always been selective about the character and calibre of man that i have pursued. and yes, i said pursued. i am not one to wait when my heart decides to beat for another. that it has beat for these men for as long as it has i am surprised it has a steady rythm at all.