I HOPE WHAT ALL I AM FEELING IS'NT REAL,...LIKE WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN,I FEEL CRUSHED INSIDE LIKE A ROSE ONLY TRAMPLED ON,IT''S BEAUTY IS LOST ALL THE THINGS THAT I HOLD HAPPY AND DEAR IN MY HEART ARE ENTANGLED IN A FEELING THAT I AM GOING TO GET HURT,I FEEL CONFUSED,AND THAT INSTEAD OF HELPING SOMEONE,I AM CAUSING MORE HARM,...I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON,AND IF THIS IS ONLY A FEELING THAN FOR ONCE I HOPE WHAT I FEEL IS WRONG,THAT IT IS ONLY A BAD DREAM,AND I WILL WAKE UP TOMORROW,...AND GET THE ANSWER I SEEK,OR INDEED BE HURT,SO I HOPE THIS IS ONLY A TEMPORARY HEARTBREAK.