I just wish i could say the things i really want to say. I just want to scream how i feel and not have all this pent up emotion anymore. I want to do so many things and and say so many words. I'm so intimidated! Im so scared of you. It shouldnt be this way. I didnt want to feel this way at all yet. I really wish i could control my feelings about it. I havnt even told anyone what i want. Well one person....she knows who she is.
Sometimes i wonder what happened to me. Sometimes i wish things were different with me and id stop thinking these foolish thoughts. They are stupid and childish and i already know the answer of the quesions i want to say. The answer is "No." and "What are you crazy?" "Your asking this cause u have no other options."
I just know thats what would be said. Sorry this blog is so vague but i really dont want to go into detail, i just needed to vent. Plus there are people on here that will go behind my back and tell the person i am talking about that i was talking about that person and so on and so on and fuckin so on. I cant take that right now.
Sometimes i think why am i putting myself into this situation....
