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I didn't want to know I just didn't want to know Best to keep things in the shallow end Cause I never quite learned how to swim I just didn't want to know Didn't want, didn't want, Didn't want, didn't want Close my eyes just to look at you Taken by the seamless vision I close my eyes, Ignore the smoke, Ignore the smoke, Ignore the smoke Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue While I just sit and stare at you Because I don't want to know I didn't want to know I just didn't want to know I just didn't want Mistook the nods for an approval Just ignore the smoke and smile Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a perfect color for your eyes Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue While I just sit and stare at you I don't want to know

Help me if you can It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired So could you please, Help me understand why You've given in to all these Reckless dark desires You're lying to yourself again Suicidal imbecile Think about it, put it on the faultline What'll it take to get it through to you precious I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this Such a mess. Why would I want to watch you. Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence Lying through your teeth again Suicidal imbecile Think about it, put it on the fautline What'll it take to get it through to you precious Go with this, why do you wanna throw it away like this Such a mess. Why would I wanna watch you... Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die They were right about you They were right about you Lying to my face again Suicidal imbecile Think about it put it on the fautline What'll it take to get it through to you precious I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this Such a mess, I'm over this, over this! Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere, Do it somewhere far away from here

Mankind in his insatiable search for divine Knowledge has discarded all biblical teachings Realizing that the strength of religion is the repression of knowledge All structures of religion have collapsed Life prays for death in the wake of the horror of these revelations It was never imagined how graphic the reality that would be known as the end of creation Would manifest itself We believe all this chaos and atrocity can be traced Back to one single event We hold these truths to be painfully self-evident All men are not created equal Only the strong will prosper Only the strong will conquer Only in the darkness of Christ have I realized God Hates Us All

The river I'm bound to be found in, A rope chosen bound for the hang. When I'm blind and I think I see everything, Convincing myself again. This god that i worship (a faded reflection). This demon I blame (a flickering flame). Conspire as one, exactly the same. It's exactly the same Descending. To never recover the pieces to all that we've lost. Recover the pieces lost. The pieces to all we've lost. I shudder to think of the consequece, It's blasphemy simple and true. The tragic protagonist torments, Convincing myself again. This god that I worship (a faded reflection). This demon I blame (a flickering flame). Conspire as one, exactly the same. It's exactly the same. Descending. To never recover the pieces to all that we've lost. Recover the pieces lost. The pieces to all we've lost

Greed has caused you to become a monster Greed has caused you to become so cold You said you loved him, then you put him away "'Til death do us part" means nothing to you Greed has caused you to become so jaded We've got some news for you, every dollar you save Will cushion your pillows in hell You act like we're blind, deaf and dumb Betrayal has now left us numb We're sorry we can't escape from This choice now we all must succumb He's been thrown away, left for dead How could you choose money instead Greed has caused you to become a monster Greed has caused you to become so cold You said you loved him, then you put him away "'Til death do us part" means nothing to you Greed has caused you to become so jaded We've got some news for you, every dollar you save Will cushion your pillows in hell You act like we're we're blind, deaf and dumb Betrayal has now left us numb We're sorry we can't escape from This choice now we all must succumb He's been thrown away, left for dead This is only father we're dead Thrown away, left for dead How could you choose money instead We will never forget that you're the reason This sadness has overwhelmed us This grief is too much to bear How can we look you in the eyes How could you ruin his life After all the years of joy he brought us There's no "we" anymore There's no "us" anymore You will have to live your last days infamy How could you do this How could you choose to have him Thrown away, left for dead This is only father we're dead Thrown away, left for dead How could you choose money instead

As I lay this all to rest Shadows appear reminding me Of all things left unsaid by me Maybe one day you'll believe That I will crawl I will crawl on broken knees It's beyond what you really need Forcing it all out of you Will I make your life complete Come Clean Am I the sorrow That you won't reap Am I the secret That you can't keep Well I won't stop Until I'm complete And I won't stop Until you believe I won't stop until you need me

Now you've got something to die for. Infidel, Imperial Lust for blood, a blind crusade Apocalyptic, we count the days. Bombs to set the people free, blood to feed the dollar tree Flags for coffins on the screen, oil for the machine Army of liberation, gunpoint indoctrination The fires of sedition Fulfill the prophecy. Now you've got something to die for. Send the childrean to the fire, sons and daugthers stack the pyre Stoke the flame of the empire, live to lie another day Face of hypocrisy, raping the democracy Apocalyptic, we count the days. We'll never get out of this hole until we've dug our own grave And drug the rest down with us, the burning home of the brave Burn. Now you've got something to die for.

He had alot to say. He had alot of nothing to say. We'll miss him. So long. We wish you well. You told us how you weren't afraid to die. Well then, so long. Don't cry. Or feel too down. Not all martyrs see divinity. But at least you tried. Standing above the crowd, He had a voice that was strong and loud. We'll miss him. Ranting and pointing his finger At everything but his heart. We'll miss him. No way to recall What it was that you had said to me, Like I care at all. So loud. You sure could yell. You took a stand on every little thing And so loud. Standing above the crowd, He had a voice so strong and loud and I Swallowed his facade cuz I'm so Eager to identify with Someone above the ground, Someone who seemed to feel the same, Someone prepared to lead the way, with Someone who would die for me. Will you? Will you now? Would you die for me? Don't you fuckin lie. Don't you step out of line. Don't you fuckin lie. You've claimed all this time that you would die for me. Why then are you so surprised to hear your own eulogy? You had alot to say. You had alot of nothing to say. Come down. Get off your fuckin cross. We need the fuckin space to nail the next fool martyr. To ascend you must die. You must be crucified For your sins and your lies. Goodbye...

Don't know why he does what he does Playing lost and found with your love Trying to confuse you, use you Girl. he's gonna lose you sure enough Don't know why he says all those things Always shootin' down all your dreams He ought to know better than that He ought to be watching his back 'cause you know you know Girl I'd love to shine in your eyes If only for just a moment Girl I'd be satisfied If I could only touch your cheek Baby that's all I'd need To make my life complete Girl I know I can make you smile If you knew that I was here Wishing that I could just be your tear I don't know why he cant find the words Saying all those things you deserve Girl if it was me there I swear You know you wouldn't have to feel so unsure About what tomorrow would bring Don't you know I'd give everything If I could just hold you like him If I could be more than just friends 'Cause you know you know Girl I'd love to shine in your eyes If only for just a moment Girl I'd be satisfied If I could only touch your cheek Baby that's all I'd need To make my life complete Girl I know I can make you smile If you knew that I was here Wishing that I could just be your tear Your tear, your tear, Wishin' I could just be your tear, Your tear, your tear, yeah.. Oh girl I love the shine in your eyes, in your kiss, in your smile, and your touch. Girl I love that look in your eyes When you say that you need me so much. If only I could just be your tear.....

A groan of tedium escapes me, Startling the fearful. Is this a test? It has to be, Otherwise I can't go on. Draining patience, drain vitality. This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old. But I'm still right here Giving blood, keeping faith And I'm still right here. Wait it out, Gonna wait it out, Be patient (wait it out). If there were no rewards to reap, No loving embrace to see me through This tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. Gonna wait it out. If there were no desire to heal The damaged and broken met along This tedious path I've chosen here I certainly would've walked away by now. And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may. Be patient. I must keep reminding myself of this. And if there were no rewards to reap, No loving embrace to see me through This tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. And I still may. Gonna wait it out.