ColoCntrygrl's blog: "simple thoughts of a complicated mind."

Laying in your arms My head on your chest Every heartbeat I could hear my name Each syllable being pounded out Look into your eyes and I see All I have ever dreamed of Feelings of disbelief that this could be real Everything thing I’ve ever thought of The man of my dreams Sitting up in a sweat Tears streaming down my face It all was just a dream Back to reality I face Hopes and dreams shattered The blink of an eye you were there In half that time you were gone I thought it would be forever Truly madly deeply You used to tell me You were just as happy as me Because of your past You chose to give up your future My future determined When you gave up yours What we could have been Just a fantasy Our choices have paved our roads Separately the paths they lead Maybe one day they will meet again You gave me the love I’ve always dreamed You are what I strive for in my life Your nothing but a dream to me

Your loving hands Kneeling here before you my head down in shame my heart hurting as if a knife was stabbed inside I close my tear stained eyes for I can't look upon you until my days end has come I beg for you forgiveness I know I have done wrong like a gentle breeze on a spring day I feel you love surround me I knew you loved me I knew you cared in times like this I need to feel you loving hands as you help me stand please show me the way as you've always done I give all of myself for you to work through take my hand and walk with me to my final end

Walk Away I wanted you more then anything would have given up my life but you weren't ready for that you wanted your old life i let you make your choice knowing what it would be i pretended it wouldn't hurt but it is killing me i tried so hard not to cry but i can't hold back wanting you to be happy all i could do was step back so happy i was with you in my life but wanting you to be happy i had no choice i stepped away not willing to fight i think now maybe i should have the fight for your life i wnt you to be happy from now till you die i know she will hurt you again but i can't do anything but cry i told you i was rebound litle did i know you would run back to her leaving me to hurt i just want you to be happy no matter what don't hurt anymore because what i do best is take the pain for all the rest i may never love again but i'll be ok because i'm strong i've always been that way just don't forget that i care for you i sit and cry pretending it was never meant so with you i leave my strength to walk away

untitled In a field there I stand Looking east and west I see nothing I see no one Remembering back Back when I was surrounded Friends and family To many to count What happened? The feeling of love Happiness and harmony But in the blink of an eye I�m all alone My family has moved No longer do I fit My friends have wandered away Noting to smile about Nothing to love All alone in my world Where�d I go wrong? An outcast in life.

back story on this one is one of my ex's had 3 boys...one was on his way into our custody when the 2 3 year old twins were beat severly by their uncle...killing one...the surving one was going to come into our custody until my ex left one day and never came back......So the surving twin was put in to foster care and was put up for adoption. He's now living a wonderful life with a wonderful family...with his brother flying with him at all times. Never alone Sitting and watching children at play Tears start to fall All the smiling laughing faces To sit here and wonder about that day What could have gone so wrong to make him do what he did The force that had to have been used to do what was done Seeing the look on all these faces But knowing that life is so precious That anyone can go through what those little boys did But now from above one watches over the other Never alone dear Seth will be

I saw your eyes It skipped I saw you smile It headed your way I hear you laugh It inched closer You said my name It moved a foot Your lips touched mine It jumped You held me tight I felt it stop From that moment My heart was yours

But I write poetry to get things out in the open.....this is a random selection of my poems. if you'd like to see more go to http://PostPoems.com/members/colocntrygrl27 My Two Best Friends two people that mean the world to me one who knows that I would die for her and one that would die for me I tell them I love them I think they don't understand never in my life did I care so much they are my world they can make me smile or make me cry closer to me then my family the ones I turn to for most of my needs they always come through when I need it most I pray every night that they never go away I would be lost without them left in a world that can be so cold and harsh they are my light that keeps me sane my two best friends without them life wouldn't be the same