For years I have walked among the broken in spirit and in heart. I have been through eating disorders, severe depression, self mutilation, rape, miscarriage...the works.I have been betrayed and screw over more times then I care to admit. As it is RIGHT NOW I have so much shit going on, it seems almost alot to bear...
1) this whole court thing. My god, I have to go down to the courthouse tomorrow to schedule the appointment for my hearing on this stupid supposed shop lifting act. *rolls eyes*
this is bad enough. If they do decide for some reason to prosecute, I am truly hoping all I get out of this is some sort of fine. I have NEVER been in this type of trouble before and frankly, I dont like it.
2) My parents have been married 36 years.. in August of '06 my mom left. We have been through hell with mom and dad...damn father and his suicide attempt(almost success)..and now mom has had to refile the divorce papers for the THIRD fucking time and now she wants ME to take them to him? Yeah no.
And so many other things. I hate this overwhelming feeling. I have been doing mass overtime just to get away and to keep busy but I cant keep doing this forever. I have to be able to sit down and to face everything but I am so damn tired of it.
Night everyone, sorry to unload.
Crimson
