... that I have written in the past few days.
These have been put down in the order I wrote them... If you don't like them, please don't comment on them. They're my feelings... whether you like them or not.
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Broken Dreams
Lonely heart,
Broken heart...
Dreams come true,
torn apart
Sad soul,
Depressed soul...
Agony and despair
It takes its toll...
Brown eyes,
Crying eyes...
tears slip down,
just a little, she "dies"
Depressing life,
Miserable life...
The hurtful words
Cut like a knife...
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Love
Once again she is
Hurt beyond words...
Once again her world is crushed...
Love is dead.
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Clear Blood
Tears... clear blood...
Outer proof that she is hurt
No less visable
Than if it were red...
The pain is real
The saddness too....
Tears they fall...
Like clear blood.
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Thoughts
I thought my heart
Would feel empty
I thought I'd still be sad...
I felt my world is crashing
But I am not that sad...
My feelings on paper,
My heart and mind spent
At last I can rest
Knowing it's all out.
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Love Decided to Leave
Love still was in her heart
Even after that day
When he decided
That he would walk away.
This love was like the sun
Full and shining bright...
But now it's setting,
And she is lost without light.
He was her smile...
When she was down.
He was her love,
Who almost never had a frown.
They were close
Once upon a time, true..
Little things got in the way
And turned his love blue.
She still loves him,
Even to this day...
But she'd rather him be happy
So she'll watch him walk away.
Time mends all things
Or so they want you to believe...
Life must go on.
It's hard when love decided to leave.
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When Love is Gone
Last night I cried myself to sleep
Thinking of happy times
My heart will always weep
For that lost love.
I laid on his side of the bed
And cried into his pillow
My heart feels like led
His presence is still everywhere.
How can I go on without love?
Who can I turn to...
Besides God above?
Who else knows my pain?
Who is there I can talk to?
What can me done?
My heart is sad and blue...
I feel lost.
This paper is my only friend
This pen is my tool...
Both will be here until the end
Taking notes when love is gone.
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Wishing Him The Best
I have nothing to confess
I feel sad that is all...
I've never cheated
Or even dreamed of another.
I've always been faithful
To a love that wasn't there.
Why he lingered on so
For this many years
I'm not sure...
But a more faithful person
I doubt he finds
But I wish him the best.
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Tormenting Myself
Why must my heart
Hold onto him
When he clearly
Wants out?
Why must my mind
Torment me
With thoughts of him
Good times will be no more...
Why must my soul
Feel weighed down
He couldn't have been my soulmate
Or he wouldn't have gone
And hurt me
Would he?
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Love walks away
Lonely and sad
I sit and wait
For love to find me....
For a soulmate.
I thought I had him
He said I was wrong.
My heart lay broken
My saddness is long
He walks away from me
From love that was true.
There is no love from him
He has left me blue
I still love my husband, true to be...
I hope that love he can still see.
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Darkness
Darkness lays heavy
On my heart
I fear the sun
Will never again shine
Will my heart ever
Feel warm love again?
Will I get over
Losing my true love?
I am lost
And so confused...
I miss him.
I miss my love.
But I haven't
Had him in so long...
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What Happened
My heart lay
broken, bloody, and trampled..
I never knew how you felt.
We stopped talking
A long time ago.
What happened to my friend?
What happened to our love?
Why is it I have to hurt
For you to be happy?
If you still love me
Like you claim to
Why can't we make us work?
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What I want
You won't talk to me
Or even look my way.
I'm trying to be nice
I'm not sure what to say.
I don't want this over
This much I know
But I realize
I can't beg you not to go.
I don't need you in my life
But I want you here to share it
I want you, nothing else...
I can't stand this shit.
I know what I want
Just like always before.
But I know to make you happy
I let you go, I love you more.
My heart aches still
For love that seems it can't be
My heart is true to you.
I close my eyes and you're what I see.