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What are you waiting for?
It's just a simple question. And I really want to ask. It shouldn't be so difficult, It's a very common task. I guess I'm too afraid. I think I'll back on out. I want him to say "yes" but I know I'm full of doubt. I stood so strong, until I met today, then my mind collapsed, and now I want to run away. I know it won't solve anything. It will just make things worse. Sometimes I swear feelings are nothing, nothing but a curse. I wonder if he sees. I bet you that he knows. since I let it slip that I missed him, it seems life moves so slow. I need to make up my mind. I need to find a conclusion. I need to make a decision, and stop living in an allusion. I was so strong, until I met today. my mind collapsed, I think I'll walk away. My feet are frozen in my tracks. I can't turn to run, I can only look back. To afraid to run. To afraid to ask. I can't make up my mind. It's a risky task. Not a clue of what I'd be getting into no clue of what I'd be missing. Too afraid to move. Too afraid of risking. I was so strong, until I met today. My mind collapsed, Now I'm walking away. I made up my mind. I found that conclusion. I made a decision, but I still live in my allusion.
Take the pain,
make thee well.
Give them one's strength,
and remove darkness which fell.
Give them one's blood,
to replace what they miss.
Take the headache,
leave thee a kiss.
Replace the dizzyness
with lack, there-of.
This thing I do,
shows my love.
From sickness to health,
til death do thee part,
and forever after,
you'll still have my heart.
Relinquish all dark,
even which wasn't named.
Exchange for thy light,
which will always remain.
May the magick of the wolf
speed the healing of they wound.
Undo what happened,
fix it soon.
Heal it quick.
Heal it fast.
Create a shield,
make it last.
Engulf thee in light,
to make the darkness fade.
Remove the evil
and leave good in place.
To finish this poem,
my dearest peice of work,
I love you, I'll say,
as I mean every word.-Never Look Back-
Life is Spontaneous
So walk through it blind
You'll find all the wonders
Which others pass by.
You'll know when you find them
For they'll steal your heart
And you'll be so happy
you'll never wish to part.
And when times get tough
don't look back.
For when you look back
you'll remember the scars.
remembering the wounds
brings back a fear
and when you listen to your mind
you'll wind up here..
"Did I make the right choice?"
A question to be forever in your thoughts.
Haunting you..
Leaving you full of remorse..
So heed my advice..
It's just as simple as that.
The past has passed.
So let us leave it all behind.
Keep it out of sight.
Keep it out of mind.
Never look back,
Don't ruin what you have.
Keep walking blind
You're on the best path
Don't pass up the oppourtunity
that you are unlikely to get again.
Because if you throw it away,
there can be no amends.The line.
You crossed it once.
You crossed it again.
One time too far,
my very dear friend.
Every cut.
Every bruise.
Every smither of pain...
I'll enjoy returning the favor.
In fact..
Let's play a game.
"Karma's a bitch!"
That's what they all say.
It's back to get you.
And you won't get away.
I can garauntee it'll be slow.
And very painful too.
Let's use poison!
No, Acid will do!
I'll savor every second,
as they each pass by.
And as your body is eaten away,
My spirits will soar,
and they will soar high.
Every cut.
Every bruise.
Every bit of pain..
I'll see that it be returned.
And enjoy every bit of whatching you burn.
My Adrenaline thrives,
As I see the pain in your eyes.
The more I can make you scream,
the more I make you feel alive.
Just do it again..
Cross the line one more time.
I dare you.
-Poe-
-12/12/09-Torn in two. staring at this paper thinking "what to write?" since yesterday, my mind and heart haven't sat light. i love you both i really do and now that the you're back my heart's tearing in two. i thought i made up my mind. i guess i thought wrong. i guess i muddled a few notes in life's precious song. nobody's notes are hit in perfect tune not only did i mix them, but i hit too late, and too soon. better late than never a phrase common said. only for some things, i think in my head. after last night, all the things that i read still play like those old black and white flicks deep inside my head. word for word it echoes in dismay imagining the hurt i caused my heart turns to grey. i'm sorry i let you down. i promise that i tried. i held on as long as i could. i'm sorry i let it die. i still love you.
[He knows who he is] When I think of you, I find a smile on my face. When I hear you, My heart changes pace. I find myself missing you When I wait for your reply. And every second you're away, I find myself wanting to cry. When I see your picture, I find myself in day dreams. and when I read your IM's, My heart bursts through my seams. I fall asleep with a smile, as you never leave my thoughts. You have not a single clue how much happiness you've brought. I love the silly 'arguments' and the long conversations, that have nothing to do with anything. AT ALL. and I can't find anything that nearly explains this feeling. Or even compares to it.. I guess "I love you" will have to do. ♥
[This poem totally contradicts itself.. like 4 times..] I do not feel. I have no pain. There is nothing to lose, and nothing to gain. So cut out my heart with that razor blade. Throw in some salt. Go straight ahead Even bring my damn life to a halt! It won't burn. It won't sting. Hell, it won't even make my ears ring. One life here. One life gone. Have no fear, you're not wrong. I want to go, I want to be. Let my soul fly, let it free. Go ahead and stab me here. Burn me there. Do what you wish, It's not like I fucking care. Kiss me. Kill me. Abuse me. Thrill me. Have fun. I'll play your game. If you enjoy it, you'll have no shame. Suck the blood. Lick the face. I double dog dare you! Make my heart race. But wait.. There's something else.. All I really long for.. is someone's embrace.
Running down that trail in the black of night. Listening to crickets chirp, in the moon's romantic light. We'll act like we're indestructible, and do the most dangerous things we can think of, yet not have a slight care where we'll end up. We'll sit out and watch the stars. And see if we can count them all. And yet, knowing its impossible, we'll do it 'til morning's call. And we'll probably fall asleep listening to nature's song, and holding each other all night long. And even if we never do, I'll still care for you. Cherish these moments because life moves fast and just love me back, it's all I ask..
Mind Game Toying with your mind. This is so much fun. Making you wish, that, away you could run Teasing, picking, prying, simply testing how much you can take. Stabbing and burning, seeing just how many issues I can make. Seeing things, hearing things, come on, come on, just a little more. Saying things, doing things, how long 'till i have your mind tore? Poking and stretching, how much of this can you take? Bending and twisting, how long till u break? These little games are so much fun. Can you find me? Can you stop me? I promise that I wont run. I dare you to get me. Several problems I shall bore. Catch me, catch me, before I make some more. This game I play is so fascinating. Picking, picking, how much can you take? Gripping tight, I cant wait to see you break Who will win is our greatest mystery. Kill me, kill me, wait, you cant get the best of thee. I will win, I will win. This beast inside will win again. Kill yourself, kill yourself, there can be no amends. I still win, I still win. You forever will hate this beast within. Try to bury me deeper inside, but I come back once again. You'll never get me to hide. Just taking, taking, and taking some more. Taking away things you love. Seeing, just how many issues I can bore. This is more fun than before. So complex, so intriguing, biting and drilling so much, your insides will soon be bleeding. Clawing, scratching, fun galore. Slipping in and out of your mind, it's only a matter of time. Sending chills through your spine. I'm gonna pull this off. Turning your days into disaster, turning your dreams into nightmares, making your sanity slip away faster, making you want sleep no more. You know who I am. I am right here. You know me better than you know yourself. Why can I create such fear? Simply prodding your thoughts, putting the words in your head. Take the gun. You know you want to be dead. Scream as loud as you want too, but nobody cares, no one will hear. Be free, be free, get rid of your fear. It only takes one decision. One decision. One final thought. With such precision, your not far away. Your true thoughts only I can hear. I fill you with deceit, as you look at the mirror. I fill you with lies. I put you in pain. Your hope has failed you, death to be your only gain, your life nearly mine. You have met no demise. Since I made your life a living hell, this has been a great surprise. Since I'm the beast that lies inside, this should be a mental note: I'm gonna win, there is no way out. So take the gun and put the barrel down the back of your throat. Just do it, don't bother to shout. Pull the trigger and it will all be gone. This is the mind game that I play. It's so much fun, and so long. And now my friend, Don't think twice, just take that gun. Do as your told, and by the count of one.. Zero, one... You did it, you fool! I hope you realize that I have won. This mind game I play, it's not over yet. Now, on to the next victim. They shall pay. And for what you ask? Nothing, I say. Leaving your body, just slipping away. The beautiful crimson blood, seeping out as you lay. The game goes on forever. Nobody has been able to stop me. Not now, nor ever. The circle continues,starting again, 'cause in this circle, there was a beginning, but will be no end. It goes on forever. Forever, and always. so, my dear puppet, get ready for a few long days.
