willow's blog: "Sadness"

I am not so sad anymore, however i did move home to my mothers house with both my boys. but at least for now it is rent free. I am well medicated and over the depresion that came with breaking up with my boys father. But alas i am still sad about many things most of which makes no cense to even me. i have given up on getting laied for the sake of getting laied what i want is a relationship does not have to be love but must at least be a really good friend w/benifits of course. lol anyway just felt like typing for a few to kill some time later all you beautiful ppl May the Goddess and the God protect you and May you always fing the silver lining.

How do you know what is Love and what is Lust? I do not know how to tell? I know my feelings are strong. I know that I wish him to be here, with me. but do i love him?? I swore I would not love again after my heart was broken to many times. but I have not felt this way in a long time so alive so free. I do not want to loose these feelings. What do I do?

Today I am Sad. I do not exactly why. It could be the change in seasons. It could be that I am very tired. It could be that I have strong feelings for someone who is very special but is far away and I wish him to be here. I talk on the phone with him and I feel, happy, safe and warm inside but then i remember he is not here with me. I have not felt this way about another person in a very long time. I want to get to know him better. I want to know him in person. see if we click. But i will have to wait. and I am saddened by that.