original post date: 2008-07-09 11:13:11
On July 9, 2007, my best friend left this place and went to the spirit world. Her name was Asena or Sena for short. She was herding sheep one day and the next day she had trouble walking. Xrays revealed bone cancer had eaten part of her 7th vertebrae. Her strength and spirit were amazing and I've never seen it matched in animal or human.
Yesterday I had a memorial tattoo put on my back and the pain didn't even come close to matching the pain of losing her from my life, knowing that I could not take away her pain without ending her life here.
There was some definite release emotionally that came with the physical pain of the tattoo being done. I felt a lessening of the heartache I carried; I hope that maybe now I can feel a little more at peace and a little less tortured in anguish over her death.
I know she is spiritually with me, I believe that. But now she'll always be symbolically with me, watching my back just like she always did. Without her, I don't know how I would have survived the last 11 years. She saved me many times.
Wait for me Sena, keep watch, until we reach the circle's end and you come back to me again.