lady daykota's blog: "RIGHT BEHIND YOU"

so its close to my best friend getting out and if any of you read my last blog you would know the problems i am facing. SO............ Here is what i have decided i am going to do. NOTHING. i am not going to get involved, even though my sister is trying to drag me in the middle of all this, i am not doing it. Eddie hasnt talked to me in WEEKS....guess our friendship is over. pretty fucked up he would choose......we always said we would never do that to eachother, but hey i guess i was taken for a ride and played like a fool.. stupid me. I have come to the conclusion that i am not going to put up with people and their bullshit, so i am saying that if you want to start drama find someone else to do it with, cause i just dont care anymore.

so i know i havent been on in a long time i felt the need to get back intouch with some important things in my life only to have them coming crushing down around my head. thought i was smart enough this time around to fix this very very weird perdictiment that i find myself in. my best friend and i mean the kind of friend you tell everything to who you love like no other, is seriously thinking about marrying my sister. now some part of me says good for them. another bigger part of me is screaming on the inside ARE U STUPID OR SOMETHING? my sister not to bash on her but is the type of women who had 3 kids to just leave them and runaway from her problems. and this man presents more than just problems. i mean we know eachother better than we know ourselfs and he knows everything about her and what she has done. now i more than anybody know that if people want to change they can. but unless hell has frozen over she isnt and hasnt changed. so i ask my self what do i do? this situation is more complicated than i can say at this time, one because it causes me too much pain to think about it. and the other because a small part of me is overjoyed. sounds crazy huh? well the part where choosing comes in because hes a very very good friend and i dont want to see him hurt and because she is my sister and i know what game she is playing. so do i be the good friend and stick to our vow to eachother or do i be the good sister and take it all in with blind eyes?

HEllo guys i am back up and running and would love to chatch up on what has been going on with CT and you all as well. so speak up leave a women a comment or something daykota

sorry guys that i have not been on here as much lately, just dealing with some issues at the moment that need my full attention. i am hoping to be back online soon!!!! much love to everybody!!! HUGS lady daykota

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear Sealed with lies through so many tears Lost from within, pursuing the end I fight for the chance to be lied to again You will never be strong enough You will never be good enough You were never conceived in love You will not rise above They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me But through my tears breaks a blinding light Birthing a dawn to this endless night Arms outstretched, awaiting me An open embrace upon a bleeding tree Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me

everytime that i look in the mirror All these lines on my face gettin' clearer The past is gone It went by like dust to dawn Isn't that the way Everybody's got their dues in life to pay I know what nobody knows Where it comes and where it goes I know it's everybody's sin You got to lose to know how to win Half my life is in books' written pages Live and learn from fools and from sages You know it's true All the things come back to you Sing with me, sing for the years Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears Sing with me, if it's just for today Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away (x2) Dream on, dream on Dream yourself a dream come true Dream on, dream on Dream until your dream come true Dream on, dream on, dream on... Sing with me, sing for the years Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears Sing with me, if it's just for today Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Come 'ere baby You know you drive me up the wall The way you make good for all the nasty tricks you pull Seems like we're makin' up more than we're makin' love And it always seems you've got something on your mind Other than me Girl, you gotta change your crazy ways - you hear me Say you're leavin' on the seven thirty train And that you're heading out to hollywood Girl, you've been givin' me that line so many times It kinda gets that feelin' bad looks good That kinda lovin' turns a man to a slave That kinda lovin' sends a man right to his grave N (chorus) I go crazy, crazy, baby, i go crazy You turn it on - then you're gone Yeah you drive me crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby What can i do, honey I feel like the color blue You're packin' up your stuff And and talkin' like it's tough And tryin' to tell me That it's time to go But i know you ain't wearin' nothin' underneath that Overcoat and that it's all a show That kinda lovin' makes me wanna pull down the shade, Yeah That kinda lovin' yeah, now i'm never gonna be the same (chorus) I'm losing my mind Girl, 'cause i'm goin' crazy I need your love, honey, yeah I need your love

wanted u to know, that i love the way u laugh i wanna hold u i am still your man well, i keep your photograph and i know it serves me well i wanna hold u i am still your man cause im broken, when im lonesome, and i dont wanna feel right when ur gone away... your gonnna win, u dont feel me anymore... the worst is over now, and we can breathe again, i wanna hold u i am still your babe well, theres so much love to learn, i know what love to find, i wanna hold u i am still your babe cause im broken, when im open, and i dont feel right, i am strong enough cause im broken when im lonesome and i dont feel right, when youre gone away...[3x's] your gonna win, u dont feel me anymore...

balder) Nightmares Demons haunt my taunted mind I'm scared My death's foreseen ungloryful Please father Make my demons disappear Please mother Death is everywhere (odin) My son, i've seen your fear I have felt your pain No harm will come to you An oath has been sworn (balder) The evil forces around us Still want to destroy me Who is the evil slayer I cannot see Loke, the deceitful god Discovers the arrow of death Pointed for h§èder the blind By the jealous loke The arrow cuts through the skin And into the heart of the bright one Silence spreads throughout the hall of aesir As the god of light fells to his knees dying! Sorrow throughout the nine worlds The bright god is gone Sent to nifelheim by the deceitful