Onyx's blog: "Random Writings"

WHy is it that I cant seem to show my feelings at the right time. Is it because I am afraid of getting hurt yet again.. then why is it that no matter what I do I get hurt. Am I not ment to love someone w/o getting hurt. "dont do this or that because you might hurt so and so" well fuck 'em!! I guess I should turn into the royal Bitch and do what ever feels best for me. I give up trying to make everyone else happy! I'm not one who hands out my feelings lightly. Yes I care for many people but there are those who are very special to me. Why cant I show those feelings to the world with out worrying what this bitch that doesnt know I exsist feels or what that one who thinks I'm just a friend because she has a major crush on him..... fuck it So I guess for the sake of my heart andthe sake of my sanity I should probably keep all feelings out of my life. no like no love no happiness no joy no hate no anger no trust no nothing.

If I thought it would do any good to report it lost I would, I had it one day, then someone took my love away. It may have a companion, it might have a friend, a Broken heart is traveling with it. I thought I could replace it, just get a better one, but sometimes it doesnt work just right, a times the new smile just wont come. So if you find my broken heart, my smile should be close by, waiting for that special someone to come along, fix them both and put the sparkle back in my eye. Onyx 4-20-07