I feel lonely today not much diffrent from any other day really other than I relized something.I am alone yes I have my 2 babies but I have noone for those cold nights to hold close. To have that feeling agin is something I crave more than anything.To have that person look apon you and for you to relize that yes you are loved....someone called here for my ex today made me think wow dumb ass he hasnt lived here for a year then in turn made me think wow its been almost a year sence I have had that want or feeling.He really did break me.I have used men for a time now the way I have seen and have had personal experience with. I thought why get your heart involved get what you want have them be the lucky ones if you decide to speak with them agin. Rude of me yes shilding me from that pain is all I wanted then i see it I can cause that pain in men even though I say what its all about before hand they think yea I will melt her now frozen heart.Its not frozen its broken. how long does it take for you to forget the man who stopped time with a mere kiss,and tore your heart to pieces when he said goodbye?
