frogman81974's blog: "random things from sports to life"

how come there isnt a manual for living life can someone tell me how to understand the feelings i have i mean i have spent most of my life understanding how i feel yet i cant seem to figure out why others feel something and hide it away isnt life supposed to be about working for what you want i mean i get you cant always get what you want but what if you know what you want and the thing you want knows the samething why does there have to be something holding each person back fear to me is a waste of time its not rational thought its your mind trying to protect you from harm but what if there is no way to protect you from harm what if your gonna have that harm no matter what i guess this is me saying i know better but i dont heck i might be all wrong maybe you can change the things that are gonna happen to you or maybe you cant maybe you are gonna meet people that hurt you but that opens the door to meet someone new and maybe thats what life is meeting new people seeing different things i guess its really your choice but no reason to deny what you feel but then again i am perfect i really have no idea what love is

i stand beside you my hand locked with yours as we both look down the path we look at each other and smile as we take a step forward i can feel your fear and i reasure you with my love as we take another step forward you squeeze tight and i whisper into your ear i will never let you go i will always be here right beside you never leaving your side another step forward and the darkness starts to fade and with each step the light grows as the the sun shines for the both of us we can see the path and its not so scary now i can feel your heart beating faster as you now have nothing to fear because you know i am not going anywhere without you and the light is so bright nothing is hidden now and you know the truth that resides in my heart and soul its all exposed for you to see and then our lips meet and you know that this path is our path one we will walk down together for this life and the next i feel you squeeze my hand one more time and we move forward

i look forward and see a huge brick wall as far as the eye can see i walk towards it and press my hand against it looking for a weakness as i touch all over i dont feel any yet but this is no easy wall for my goal is on the other side but with time and effort this wall will fall but for now i will do all that i can to move it brick by brick i know they are for your protection and you need them but i will show you that i will be your wall i will protect you and care for you and together we will bask the glow of love

i sit here alone watching the waves crash my toes in the sand the sun burning brightly in the sky the air crisp and clean the sky a radiant shade of blue i remember a time when this place was different for me now i sit here and relive my memories it brings a smile to my face watching the waves crash and time flys by the sun makes it way to the top of the sky as i sit and remember the times it warms my heart each wave crashes on the land each time different making a different noise and retreating into the sea again taking a part of the land with it like each memory i relive it takes a part of me with it as it goes out to the sea someday when i come to this place again i can relive what was once radiant but now i just sit alone with my thoughts of life and how it changes but something tugs at me as i walk out to the water and stick my toe in and remember what was once said to me and i smile look out into the blue sea and whisper words that travel across the world i walk away from the water and sit back in the sand again and watch the day roll into night still thinking of my memories of what has past but now i must leave and let the memories be someday i will return to this special place and remind myself of a time when happiness was just an ocean away i watch one more wave crash and feel the sand inbetween my toes one last time as i make my way towards home i look back over my shoulder and smile as the sun disappears in the distance

The Beach i walk along the sand towards the figure i see in the distance i feel the sand between my toes a smile goes across my face as i feel the the cool breeze wash over me with each step i move closer to the figure i focus the figure takes shape as i see more of the figure the long beautiful hair the figure is looking off into the distance watching the sun set the sun gleams off the figures hair i can tell its brown and long i walk a bit faster towards her i see the profile of her radiant face as i get closer i smile as i am right behind her now i sit in the sand with her and wrap my arms around her she turns around and looks into my eyes i see her smile as i smile back she leans forward and kisses me the sun gleams off us kissing us also as we float off to heaven in each others arms i love you baby doll this is our special place where we meet in our dreams Michael David Campbell Copyright ©2003 Michael David Campbell

The River my love flows like a river starting at the top of the mountain flowing slowly but with each passing moment growing in strength flowing over the rocks and land as it makes its way to its destination crystal clear and cool like a fall day moving faster now as it flows down hill wanting to reach its destination i can hear it flowing now every moment youre in my heart and mind that river flows never to be dammed up never wavering as it closes in on your heart i cant help but feel excited about your touch your kisses your love invading my body and soul as the river exits into the ocean of your unending love i feel your arms wrapped around me as you kiss my lips it seems like the first time all over again as the river of my love empties itself into your ocean of love you are my ocean baby doll each and everyday my love flows to you

i am in this room alone again your presence is gone and the darkness is moving in i try to resist but your love was the light that kept the darkness out i cant help but feel alone all i have wanted in life was you your love your soft touch and your heart you shared that with me but took it back also taking mine and you broke mine into a thousand small pieces and left me to sit and cry in this darkness and all i can ask is how could you do this to me but i get no answers i was there for you when you needed me the most i never wavered in my love for you and now here i am alone and broken hearted with no answers and nothing but questions and now i have to find a way to put my heart back together and move on because i cant just crawl into the darkness and hide i have to live and you made your choice and you have to live with it but there will always be a spot for you in my heart

there once was a fire that burned in his heart for her he longed to touch her once again he longed to kiss her lips one last time so he could remember that feeling forever but now he wont get that chance for she has left her radiance no longer his to hold and keep warm with his touch as he sits and looks out into the dark sky he no longer feels that flame he feels the dark cold night rush over his body extinguishing the fire that was there and now he is alone with only the memories to keep him warm but this isnt the end its only change and he tells himself that so he can live another day and with each passing day he lives on holding hope that one day he will feel that fire burn again

innocence there use to be a time a while ago where my only worries were when to get out of bed and whether we will play football or baseball or any other variety of games i still smile when i think of that time when youth meant no worries no cares just day after day of fun and laughter when saturday morning meant a nice big breakfast and cartoons for hours and hours and parents telling you to go away as they sleep in how exciting christmas was the look of wonderment as all the presents were under the tree with all the lights and how it took forever for that day to arrive and how i couldnt sleep that night before i also remember when a kiss from mom would make everything feel better how you always had to go in for dinner as the sun set and how mom would stand on the porch and holler for you to come in and eat how bedtime was always about 900 pm and how you fought to watch one more show on tv or how mom would always say go wash your hands no matter how many times you would say they arent dirty and how you had good sunday clothes because like most boys dirt was one of your friends and how ice cream always seemed to get all over your face and shirt and riding your bike was an adventure and your imagination made a simple tree into a fortress for you and your friends to conquer and going to the public pool during the summer was a great day and most holidays meant you got something either candy or toys or a good bbq and also looking up into the night sky caused awe with all the stars and a full moon meant a few more mins of playing but what i remember best is how much fun it was to just be a kid i look back on those days and from time to time i wish i could go back and play football everyday during the season and play baseball again and pretend to be rod carew one more time and remember the innocence of youth

as i sit and write this i cant help but think of your touch your softness against my body and how your poured your heart and soul out to me the emotions i felt as your love filled my heart and soul with joy the look in your eyes right before we kissed the happiness i felt just knowing you were there as i sit here and write more i remember what it felt like to have my heart opened up and shown to the world how it felt when i poured my love into you with each passing day my heart grows in strength knowing yours is filled with my love with each day my soul fills with your thoughts and feelings of love for me if i could look at my soul i am sure it would be smiling about all the love you have given to it as i sit here and write i pour my emotions out for you i give my everything to you to keep everyday in your heart mind body and soul i am yours never wavering never ending i will love you with all that i am i will show you how much your love means to me and one day i will be there again and you will see it shining in my eyes as my soul pours itself out and into your loving heart where we will be one always and forever you are the light that shines each day and that light will never die i love you with all i am with every tear with every smile with every word i am yours and i love you now until the end of eternity mwha