Firestar Queen Goddessmember of the fuba's blog: "Queen of Darkness Poems"

Once Upon A time……. I had a tear bear to hold at nights within my arms. I had a dream world where everything was perfect. I had clothing and make up to dress up like a grown up. I had never dream of there being you and I. You are holding me close to your body. I thought you loved me. Tears from a broken heart were nothing I knew about. I would never wish for death like I do now. I never dream that I would hear you telling someone else you loved her. I never would I dare to hate you. I would never walk into your den and get the gun from the gun case. I would not even be here standing in a pool of blood. I was innocent to life wickedness, until you. I knew nothing about the horror of men could do upon a child. I dare to trust and love you. But today…. I shot you. I stand here lost to what you did to me. I wander what will become of the child you wanted nothing to do with that grows in my body. I am just a mere child, who is no more child by the sin you place upon well before my time. ©2007 Firestar

Memory Lane I remember learning….. How to kiss you in ways that make you heart flip? How Touching your warm flesh underneath my trembling fingers felt for the first time. How you made me soar just with the words that soothe my fear away? I remember biting….. How you tease my with those sweet bites upon my flesh that stir the fire? How you always knew you were going to be the only one to make feel this way? Your lips of sin that taste better than any wine I could drink. About a body that made me dare such wicked things that I lost all needs to deny you what you wanted from me. I remember the balloons….. You sent me balloons when I sick. You sent me balloons to tell me how much you love me. You even sent them on my birthday. Damn baby…..how can I ever not remember you delivered yourself with balloons flowing around your naked baby as my valentine gift? I remember falling…. Into your arms of strength each time I was weak. Into your words and eyes that seem to make me putty that only you can handle. Into your bed, where I let go of all my fear. Crazy in love with you. ©2007 Firestar

I Decide I decide when and where. You decide how. I decide hard and deep. You decide how fast or slow. I decide with each beat of my heart to deny what I feel for you. You decide to lie. You decide to make see what must be for us. You decide to love me. I decide to wander about life. You decide to follow within my shadow. I decide to cry all the pain and sorrow I see, feel and come to know into words upon paper. You decide to be the shoulder I cry upon. I decide to hate you forever. You decide to love even more. I decide to finally see. I decide there is no one else for me other than you, now I can say, I love you too. &copy2007 Firestar

Can You believe IT? I can’t believe I was afraid of…. The night howling winds until you touch me. The haunting echoes of the whispering wind in my calling my name stir the fear within me, than I saw you look into my eyes that show me no fear was ever need, as long as you where next to me. I can’t believe I was intimidated by….. Gangs and gun shoot in the night air. But, You showed me as long as your arms wrapped around me, I was always safe from all the horror upon life. As the looming sounds of siren rolling upon the air like a dreadful warning of one day you would be far from my reach, I turn to see you laying upon our bed. I can’t believe you never told me…… As each day pass, I linger here waiting for the three little words to make you know, I am everything you will ever need. As I watch you sleeping, I can’t believe, I refuse to say to them first. I can’t believe how many years it’s been since….. I stand here today, you standing there. How I wish I could just touch again? How did time fly by us? Now with all my heart and soul, I wonder if you ever knew I loved you more than life, even the day that man shot me instead of you. Did you know, I was proud to be one that took the bullet instead of you? I walk away into the sparkling glow of home; I pray you knew….. I love you always, even to the very end of my time with you. &copy2007 Firestar

Lost of a Love One I should be shame of myself to think or worst, even write such words, But Reality is... For my own personal reason Losing a love one that may be in near future is an only blessing in disguised. I linger not with tears or emotion as my father lays in a hospital bed. I ponder will God take his miserable life away finally. For year this man has never done anything good for me. He walked out of life when I was just baby. Yet I am told I should feel or care about him. Too all those around me here, I just sit to wonder, will my damn prayer finally be answered. Will my father died today? Since Monday, he has been in the hospital, never once did he calls me or sends word to me, until today. When he is barely alive? Damn my hatred deep within my heart and soul for him, But The crime he did to me long ago is burning like yesterday news upon my mind, heart and soul still. What he did, I will not speak of. All I can say…. His sorry no good ass deserves too die and rot in hell. No tears will be shed for him, if he should die. If he should live….. God, I hope he suffer so. Because I am hoping he will would die and leave this world, so there is no more reason to be reminded of what he did to me. So for all those have lost loves one, I mean no harm in my words, But For me the lost of this love one would surely be a blessing sent from God. So tonight I am wishing, hoping and praying that Herbert Gene dies tonight. ©2007 Firestar

Love Hillbilly Style Lights off. Covers up high. Woman butt ass ugly, But Better than fucking a dead dog upon a full moon. Brewing the moonshine. Teeth, Oh fuck doesn't have any. Eyes are red. Smoke that pipe like a chain smoker smoking Upon a pack of cigarette. Cursing the neighbor. Down hoeing with the family. Cooking up trouble. Kissing in the haystack. Calling the pig's home. Oh hell…. Here comes that hag of hoe, hillbilly Bertha. Gun slinging Spit better than any man. Easy to lay. But dam… Fellow, Best you bring a paper bag to cover her head. Fire blazing in the pit. Music playing. Whoa……. Here comes sweet babygirl from next door. Body that drops your mouth Like Juice melon you have been sucking on. Hearts perking up to her sway motion. Damn….. Those breasts firmly swaying Like Cow tits dying for you to suck on. When it comes to Hillbilly love…. Run does no good. Cause damn women here. Spit like man. Hunt like man. Whip your ass like man. Fuck you…. Like whore hotter than hell. ©2007 Firestar

Rant Hillbilly Style Gun loaded. My Bitch screaming for mercy. Kids hiding in the wood shed from me. Dogs are barking. Damn! Is that the fucking Cops. Oh well, Damn it all. Time for open season today. Picks up the old faithful Shout gun, Which is better for me Too Fuck up the old Bitch of hag I live with That Is laying on the dirty floor crying and all battered up? Dam her, Sorry ass for cheating on me With The neighbor damn young stud son, Who Came calling late last night Where He pisses me the fuck off, So Damn, I had to fuck his ass with the faithful ax in the backyard. Fuck This life. Ain't got to fucking time to myself no more. Kids always running around naked and hungry Like Pack of wolves, Oh hell, Wait minute. Damn… that is right. Bitch of Hag is damn wolf. Shit… Should had not kinky in the woods all those with that Wild bitch. Point my shotgun out the broken window. Damn is that old fellow, I use to hang out with, Until The day he caught me fucking his wife and two daughters In His barn behind his house. Shit… Damn my ass is now dead for sure. Fire a few shots off. Hell. Never see a fat man dance Like That before, until today. Hell no wonders my bitch was chasing his son down, Oh… Holy fuck…. Dam, Why couldn’t I see? Shit axes my own son up last night. Shit… No wonder that fucker look so much like me. Dag, it all. Picks up the shell and shots again. Hell darling, I am going to hell with you. I shoot my bitch of hag. Than Turn my damn gun upon me. Oh, Shit yeah, If you wander down my way. Be careful of my children. Those damn heathens Are Ferrous come the full moon nights. ©2007 Firestar

Law to Live Break all them. Dare to be free. Denying yourself nothing. This Is the Law to live By Forever. Seeking out your heart desire. Living your ultimate dream. Surrender all over to one. This is the law to live But Never failing to see Love can twist you Upside Down, When love is breaking all the laws To Live by. &copy2007 Firestar

Guilty Guilty I am For Wanting you. Guilty I will Be For desiring you As My lover. Guilty I Want to be So I can always feel alive. Guilty I feel When Think of you in dirty ways. Guilty I am When I say I don’t love Or Want you. Guilty I be As I refuse to tell you Of Love lurking deep within me For You. Guilty I know Because Damn I have falling in love With You. So lock me up. Throw away the damn key. Cause I am Guilty For Loving you. &copy2007 Firestar

My weakness A Man Without His clothing on. His Sinful eyes beckon me to surrender. Tongue running about his eager lips To Taste my kisses. Dirty thoughts and words Even Acts that make me go *whoa*. Making love in ways that we are misbehaving Like Children Out of control. Long hair Flowing About his broad shoulders. Skin sparkling Like Stars from above Guiding Me into warm surroundings Of his arms. Man That can make Me Stop and drool Over His wicked, alluring sexually demands. Love a man that is willing To Try everything more than once. Got the moves And Words To spin my heart and soul Like World spinning around me. Arms like a god. Body for sin. Eyes that see only me. Heart pounding a song out. A soul daring to live out All Our wicked fantasies. My weakness is A Man that never say no Or Can never get enough of Me. &copy2007 Firestar