Love is a Battlefield's blog: "Poems"

Here I sit and write this poem Thinking of all I love and all I hate Thoughts of suicide thinking its my fate I think of all the times I used to laugh And now I wish I'd just die How did so much misery come in to my life And now all I have are thoughts of suicide Crying every night is not the way to live Heck I'm still a kid I should be out hanging with all my friends But these thoughts of suicide haunt my head Will they care when I am gone When nothings left expect my thoughts And this small poem telling everyone I will be no more in about an hour Don't try to save me Just save your tears Nothing can stop me Because i have thoughts of suicide Heres to the end my dear friend I hope you live life through This is the end to this girls life And all her thoughts to boot Nothing there but my thoughts my secret thoughts of suicide

my pain is to much to hide i need help but no one's there im thinking about commiting suicide im hurting but your to happy to see im crying but you just walk on by i wanna commite suicide im screaming but you cant hear me im bleeding but you never notice so tonight im going to commite suicide and you'll never know im gone

i look at myself in the mirror wondering. wondering what happend to the girl i used to be. wondering why there are scars on my wrist. why i did this to myself. then i think back to when my whole world was crashing down. i seem to realize that these scars are suicide scars. i start to cry to the fact that i will have these scars for a life time. i grab my razor put it up to my wrist. and i start to cut. i start to cut them suicide cuts all over again. i cant stop. but i guess that this will be me forever. makeing them ugly suicide scars.

Let me bleed away my pain, Melt away from all my fears. These wounds get deeper as I go, I've chocked back all my tears. The hurt inside my darkest dreams, Shows through my stone cold eyes. To open them would tear my soul, For half the night I waste in sighs. Suicide is my only friend, To help me through my tasks. Suicide is the only friend, To let me forget my past. I do not ask for many things, So of you I ask this; Will suicide be my only friend? Or will you save me from this misery?

Some days I just wish. I could run and hide. No matter where I go. Suicide seems my only way. My life is not worth it. All this pain and suffering. I dont want to be here anymore. The only way is suicide. Nobody can help me. I cant fix myself. Nobody knows the real me. Suicide is the only way. I put on this false act. And slap a smile upon my face. When really Im dying inside. The only way is suicide. All I ever wanted was. To be loved and accepted. Just to feel the warth of your love. But you never loved or accepted me. Suicide is my only way. I hate you. Look at what you did to me. You broke my heart. You broke my spirit. You left me empty inside. Suicide is the way. You left me Hurt angry bitter and twisted. And becuase of you. Suicide is my only way

Can't you see? Don't you care I want to die? Don't you listen? Can't you hear My silent cry? Won't you turn? Can't you hold Me to your heart? Are you afraid of what might follow Once you start? Would you rather not believe I'm in such pain That all your sense and good advice Must be in vain? Would you rather tell yourself I'll be OK, And all this adolescent angst Will go away? Ah! Would I also swim across This lake alone! But if you cannot swim with me, I know I'll drown.

Something must be wrong with me with all this hurt inside, always bursting with anger, and never any pride. Something must be wrong with me if all I do is cry, I can't stop this pain all I want to do is die. Something must be wrong with me if my emotions run wild, all this confusion does is make me feel like a lost child. Something must be wrong with me with all these terrible things, always there and never gone depression is what it brings. Something must be wrong with me if I can't stop these thoughts, all this pain does is turn my stomach in knots. Something is truly wrong with me when I think there's only one way out, "Let this pain end," is all my heart will shout.